Goodbyemylove ♥

2011-01-22T01:21:00.000+08:00

你单身，我等你。

你说不想恋爱，我等你。

你突然有了新的开始，我等你。

你结束了你的爱需要疗伤，我陪你，我等你。

我以为终有一天你会发现你身边的我，终有一天会回头。

却从未想过，最终等来的却还是，一句，对不起，你很好，可是....

我承认。

我不介意迁就你。

我可以一直抬头仰望你。

只是，你真的，从来都不看我吗？

我在这里啊，我在这里啊！你听见了吗？

有时候会想。

我究竟喜欢你什么。

我究竟在等你什么？

也许得不到的才真的是最好的。

又或者，我只是没有遇见，比你更好的。

是不是真的要到，等我忘记了你。

是不是真的要到，等我放弃了你。

是不是真的要到，等我离开了你。

你才能真正地知道，我于你而言，也是那么重要。

你不知道某些时刻，我有多么难过。

你不知道，没有回应的等待，真的让人很累。

你不知道，我是鼓起了多大的勇气，才敢念念不忘。

又或者，你不是不知道，只是假装不知道。

你是那么自私。我是那么傻逼。

一次次反复。

哭累了，沉默了。

想放弃了，冷淡了。

可是时间一过，却又还是想念了。

放不下，忘不掉，戒不了，走不开。

身边的人都会心疼。

周围的人都会劝解。

大概也就只要你了吧。

仍旧那么无动于衷。

大概也就只有我了吧。

仍旧那么情有独钟。

该说什么好呢？

一个愿打一个愿挨吗？

一直在等一个人

一直在等一个回头

一直在等一份笑容

终于等到，我自己都没了笑容

也够了吧，我真的累了。

可是为什么，我向左走，向右走，还是走不出爱你的圆。

我并不奢求在你那里找到幸福

也不敢想你会有什么付出

只是想，既然做了决定我就义无反顾

可笑的是，你却连一个让我义无反顾的机会都不给我。

告诉自己

让自己离开你

告诉自己

这是最后一次哭泣

很多事情，都是有界限的

很多时候，再坚强的人都是会累的。

我不是真的傻瓜，只是曾经为你心甘情愿。

很偶尔的

你会找我，联系我。

你的突然出现，还是会挑起我心里的弦。

只是，我也学会对你伪装了，不冷不热，不咸不淡。

笑得没心没肺，也不会再流那，廉价的眼泪了。

然后听你轻轻地说，你变了。

我不知道，是该笑还是该哭。

也没有意义了，不是吗。

只是很突然的

看到一个相似的身影

听到一个相似的声音

总会身不由己，总会陷入回忆

不过，慢慢的，我也学着放下了

不是我变了，是我真的无能为力了，我认输了。

只是突然地

听见那些歌

突然想起你。

你会在哪里？

过得快乐或委屈？

每当听到这样的歌词，总是不由自主地想起我们。

只是，我知道，我们已经不是我们，以前要的也不是现在这种以后。

那么，许久之间，再次见面。

面对这样的拥抱，我大概是不会有怎样的情动了。

即使心里翻天覆地，也会装作一副淡然的样子。

我曾经所有的炽烈，也最终，还是被你耗尽了。

怪你吗？不怪你，谁都不怪，谁也怪不了。

这样的心情，这样的心声

我终于明白，终于了解，终于体会到了以前的你。

我伤了你，一遍又一遍

我爱你。很爱你。

现在是，以后也是 <3

2011-01-10T13:09:00.000+08:00

Stress .

Confuse .

If I never fall in love with you , that was how good .

Too bad ..

I hate those feeling that you gave me , what to do ? What am I ?

Sometimes, ain't I want to think much , ain't I'm not loyal on you , but .. those feeling that you gave is spoiling my heart ..

Let go and fed up , I still can't do it , because I'm loving you .

Staying with you , it will only broke my heart , what to do ? who else can tell me

I were bad before , those were already past tense .

You gonna treat me so until last forever ? Goshhh

I damn hate it

You ignored me, ignored my feeling , ignored everything that about me , but then when I asked you, do you love me ? your answer was YES .

Sometimes I sent a text to you said that I LOVE YOU . I hope that you'll reply me that I LOVE YOU TOO . But you didn't .

Arhhhh , who can actually understand my feeling ?

You're not my forever . I hate you

2011-01-05T15:22:00.001+08:00

如果有这么一天，

我不主动拨电给你，我早上没发早安短信给你，没向你交代我去了哪，做着些什么，晚上也没发短信给你

又或者，

我对你说话的语气变得冷淡，没从前热情，回答你的字数甚少，我不再说要去你家，不再找话题和你聊，宁可两个人静静不作声，

那并不代表我不爱你了

只是。。

我脑袋里想的是，我正在努力着维持我们的关系，你有吗？

谈恋爱不能懒惰，一旦懒惰了，这段感情也不可能长久

既然知道不会长久，那么还在一起有什么意思

如果真的有这么一天

那么代表在哪连续的几个夜晚，我很难过

晚上的时间变得好长，过得好慢

我不希望这样的一天会到来。

2011-01-05T15:09:00.000+08:00

自己都不知道想放弃多少次了

我真的很想很想一走了之

可是又因为舍不得，头又回了

这么一回，又留下了

一个人的生活会是怎样

啊！

这场恋爱真的很讨人厌

是怎样的人，可以真的给到我想要的东西

我要的不多也不过分

我只想你把我看得重一些

把我在你心中的地位再提高一些

每天爱我多一些

还有理所当然的关心，体贴，谅解

有这么难吗

2010-12-25T23:58:00.000+08:00

yeaaaa , merry christmasss :))

Every xmas you also here with me since 2007 .

A very special day .

The first time we count down at greentown , momo cafe .

Second time we count down at Kl and genting , we were in the same place but not together .

3th time we count down at voodoo or barroom ? I've forgotten .

erkkk , and this year , celebrate in your house and we BBQ ? ;)

HeeHee , I love you .

Love you deep deep , most most . Hope you so .

LALALA

MERRY XMASS !!

2010-12-09T23:14:00.001+08:00

Sometimes, don't blame your girlf that chat / text with others, think that is it you're ignoring her ? or else you didn't reply her msg ?

Sometimes, don't just know how to doubt for what your girlf did or done, think that is it you never give her a call or send her a msg and without telling where you go or what you do ? You will nevcr know, your girlf is worrying you for all the times .

Sometimes, don't think that your girlf is very annoying, try to think, if one day, she ignore you, how was your feel? No, cause I knew, the boyf just will only doubt about the girl . That's all . Am I right ?

Don't think that you're very understand bout the girl, actually mayb you're not .

Who else won't be change ? Everyone are changing day by day .

I did what I promise. And now I really left you in my life . Just dont ignore me . I need you everytime .

:((

what a bad night is this

2010-12-05T11:16:00.000+08:00

you don't love me .

我对你好不要当作理所当然

你对我的怀疑对我的不信任我都没了感觉

爱你是我很爱你可是你的一切正在削薄着我对你的爱

你有在乎我的一切吗

你有留意我的东西吗

你有时时刻刻都想着我吗

你有在得空或想我的时候发信息给我吗

你有在看到我的时候很开心吗

你有想一直疼我的冲动吗

你做任何事，有想到我的吗

你都不知道我每天等的就是这些

就算我真的很不爽你，很不妥你，我也只能静静，然后带过，我从来没在你面前发过什么脾气，因为我知道你的脾气比我更臭，我也知道，你不是以前的你

所以什么都自己辛苦自己忍

告诉你我的不满你的反应都会是要理不理

我很讨厌我告诉你

不懂为什么现在的我就想对你冷淡就这样一直的冷淡

其实你很好可惜我看过你更好的时候所以我现在并不觉得你有多好

对女朋友不怎么好

你不听话你不乖

甚至有时候我很想很想狂哭

为了什么原因我都不知道

心里就是有种被压抑了很久很久的感觉一直都还没释放出来

就是这样

2010-12-01T22:45:00.000+08:00

我明天去听undang噜
一个人去听耶，不怕不怕，我长大了。heheheeee :DD

我的老公今天生病了
当他告诉我的时候，我也没心情了，不开心了
我开始担心，慌张
然后就想，生病的人吃什么的？面包？粥？
他告诉过我，他不喜欢吃粥的，所以我就买了我最常吃的两种面包和发烧药给他
我搭的士去，遇到疯子

不提那疯子啦，过后就看到我宝贝老公，就给了他我买的东西。
才一下，他就要我回去了，可能是我阻碍到他吧
我也没说什么，点点头就上的士回去了
回到去，不知怎的，心情闷闷的，不愉快
我又想你了，我说我想看你多一下，你却要我回去了，你说因为有疯子

老公过后说会找我当他放工后，可是我等了几个小时，他却说明天才见吧
是的，老公生病，老公累累，应该回家休息，可是我却发了脾气，我哭了
我很无聊吧，是因为我又担心你，又想念你

我觉得自己很有病，给不到老公要的私人空间
给不到老公要的安全感
给不到老公要的东西

有时候不能怪别人，只能怪自己

可是不管怎样，我有一颗很爱老公的心 ^^

2010-11-22T00:03:00.000+08:00

How long I didnt update my bloggie already huh? hoho. Im too lazy and nothing happen on me.

Everything just fine. Cause I got him, and also I got my life.

2010-11-10T19:02:00.000+08:00

Its a very nice and wonderful birthday ever.

I love it hell muchhh :')

Thanks for the present <3 Thanks for the cake <3 Thanks for KFC ;D and Thanks for those surprise and everything.

Im so so grateful .

And one thing is, I knew there were many happened between us, make you can never believe me, never love me as before, and so on, but I want to tell you now, Ill try my best to cover everything that I did.

I wanna be the one dries your tears. I wanna be the one who helps you carry your load. I wanna be the one who knows your seceret code. I wanna be the one who holds you tight. I wanna be the one who kisses you goodnight. I wanna be the one you love.

I won't let you go once again. I won't go though our separate ways. It will never happen.

I love you , T :)

And last, happy birthday to me .

2010-10-26T00:20:00.000+08:00

I miss you, do you?
I want you, do you?

You dumped me. And now I left nothing because you WAS my everything

Are you sure you really want to get off from my life?
Opss, should ask, are you sure you really want me to give up?
Nothing else I can do now. And of cause I wont do anything now. It will only make more problem and never get your heart back.

So on, wish you happy.

2010-10-22T23:42:00.000+08:00

有谁会知道我的心情
以前的你去了哪里？
现在的你，到底是抱着什么心态对我？
我讨厌你

如果我没爱过你，那该多好
可以分开吗？可以让大家冷静吗？

你对我忽冷忽热
你有想过我吗
你做任何事情前有想过我的感受吗

我的心一天比一天淡
对你一天比一天失望

你还爱这个萦吗？

为什么在这么短的时间内，你从你的热情变得冷淡
为什么在当我这么爱你的时候，让我这么困扰
我不想爱你了

我真的很想不爱你了
做了那么多都没用
就算我哭，你也无动于衷
当你女朋友还有什么意思
一点都不快乐

需要多久，我才可以放开你
到底还要多久

我再也无法忍受你的臭脾气你的不耐烦

我以为，以前的你还存在，原来只是我想太多
我再也感受不到你的爱了

其实。。
我是个很容易满足的女生
只要你做少少事，说少少甜言蜜语，就足以让我开心了大半天
我不明白你

或许。。你不是我的缘

还记得以前的你是怎样的吗？
晚上，我在VANESS家，你刚放工，已经很夜了，你还来载我
每晚，都会来找我
每天，不用我主动找你，你都会主动传简讯或打给我
现在呢？还会吗？

我不该爱你，不该爱上你！

我恨你
真的很恨你

2010-10-13T15:54:00.000+08:00

我实在不想问他‘你爱我吗？’这个无聊透底的问题。

可是我总在怀疑。

感觉怪怪的，我到底在怀疑些什么？

有很多很多的东西，我想说，但说不出口

是怎么一回事

一样的面孔，一样的他，一样的我

通通都变成了不一样的心，不一样的他和不一样的我

我从不曾问他那无聊透底的问题，但我却问了

曾经的他不在了所以我也就开始怀疑他还爱我吗

只因为那时的他太好了所以我理所当然的相信他真的爱我

是长大了吗？还是已经经过了太多太多的事，所以也没起劲的对我好了

恋爱中的女人，就像与世隔绝般的

因为只要爱了，他就是她的一切

曾经的梦渐渐消失

也许他的爱依旧存在只是我想太多了

每个人都有属于自己的私事，都有保留秘密的权利

或许你想更了解他，但他总有些不想提及的事情

真正想了解他，就该体谅

当他想说出口的时候，自然会说

在他不想说的时候，得到的也只会是谎言

在爱情的世界里，我们不可能完全了解爱的定义

不懂爱的人，凭什么说爱

永远不要相信别人口中说出的我爱你，时间可以证明，行动可以证明

快乐，慢慢的遥远了

他的口吻，让我厌恶

只因为他的口吻，我反感

有时候我会想，对他而言，我是不是个麻烦？

甚至有时候不想再打扰他

当他想我时，他自然会找我，不是吗

是怎样的爱情，才能长久？

2010-10-09T01:26:00.000+08:00

There're a very very nice wedding dinner .

Some part is just like club. Those song and many, got lalagaga some more.

They dance dance dance , jump jump jump . SO SO HAPPY ! hahhaa. They are one gang of best friend I think :) They got fun and crazy that night. How much I hope itll happen on me in a day ;p (Everyday fahao here la me.muahahahha)

I felt sweet also even the bride is not me :D

How happy & sweet of their pics. Make my heart warm , donnt know why.

I hold you now, to be my husband in the future, HEEEE !

You said you're mine. You wont gone and I said no more can grab you from me.

You wont gone, you wont gone. I keep this sentence on my mind.

I love you, you have my word <3

2010-10-07T01:30:00.000+08:00

你爱他，但我对他的爱，你永远比不上

你们的故事多甜，多恩爱，那已是过去。

我不想多说什么，多澄清什么。

是什么让你这么的爱他？

不管怎样，他是我的老公，就请你别再妄想你们还有缘分。

那次他找你，只是纯粹的想气我，不要傻了。

你把我们之间的故事都告诉人家，这可见得你到底有多无聊，多幼稚。

你们的故事已经完了。我不想在别人的心里会有我老公的存在。

他的生活，他过得如何，不需要你知道，不需要你关心，因为他的生活有我。

How touched was your words.
It made me jealous , envy , sad , even tears droped in a moment.

I already asked him to have a look to your blog. I think, his heart will never return to you.

I feel he loves me like heaven actually but now.. I begin to doubt bout it.

Yes I just want to show off . IS ONLY SHOW FOR YOU ! Do you know why ?

No why , just because I wont be friend with all his ex .

As you said, Im a girl, ill jealous, youre right. So please dont find him anymore. Even you just want to have a try to call , unaccepble.

Sigh*

2010-10-05T21:40:00.001+08:00

初一，当上班长。参加演讲和相声比赛。夺得亚军和相声冠军以及最佳逗哏奖。

成绩不赖，整年来，全集名次不低于15。我感到光荣。

初二，再次身为班长，一样的，相声和演讲是我的专长，从小学开始，一直都是。

成绩也蛮理想。考试时都是以要赢的心态面对，次次都因为这样而获得高分，尤其历史和地理。

上课不聊天，眼睛永远都看着老师和黑板。考试总是拿着书K到半夜都不睡，非得把它们背熟不可。

少缺席。乖乖女一名。把成绩看得最重。也因此，获得不少老师的爱戴。

初三年头，也一样。。直到年中，我变了另一个样。完全的变了。

那时只想着玩玩玩。就连考试，也没那种要赢的心态了，心想过得了就算了。

到了年尾，我的成绩也刚刚好升班。因为这一年，我常缺席。就因为要玩。

高一了，更不用说，书都不看了，什么演讲相声都不理了，我彻底的不一样了，同学们都为我感到可惜，可是那时的我并不觉得有什么大不了。

以前，我一直都希望能进到理班，可是因为初三成绩烂，结果派进文班。

高一那年，我的成绩烂的没得再烂。

到最后，我升不到班，见家长，那一刻，我心酸了。

我怕了。我后悔了。妈妈也失望了。

老师问我为什么我会有如此的改变，从以前的那个我变到现在这样的我，就连我自己都不知道该如何回答。我觉得好丢面，真的好丢面。

我对不起妈妈。我对不起自己。

从小到大，都不需要妈妈的督促，就能把成绩考的顶呱呱，把功课做好好。

可是为什么。为什么初三那年，我会变得那样。

我当时哭了，把头低下，趴在桌上，前面是老师，旁边则是妈妈，那个时候，除了歉疚，还是歉疚。

我做不好了。这一次，我让你失望了。

妈妈担心着问老师是否可以转校到别的学校就读。妈妈帮我想尽一切办法。

这使我感到更加的对不起。

我绞尽脑汁，想了很久。

最后，我决定找老师。

我走向办公室，站在老师面前，忍着眼泪，问了一句话

：老师，可以给我一次机会吗？

毕竟我只差2分就能升班了。

老师看我就来哭了，就问道：为什么？你有什么担保

我说：我只是不想看到妈妈她那么失望，我希望等下放学她来载我时，我可以开心的告诉她我升班了！

老师又说：是不是只要我让你升了，你明年会恢复回原来的那个你？

我说：是，我会尽量。

我的眼泪已经在我脸上不停的流着。

老师最后说了一句好吧。还帮我擦干脸上的泪水，再请我吃了一小块饼干。

她的原谅让我松了一口气，可是也让我有着更大的罪恶感

放学了，妈妈来了，才一上车，妈妈就绵绵不绝的说了一大堆校名给我知道。

在她说到一半时，我就忽然大声的说了一句：咪，我升班了！！！

妈妈静了，沉默了几秒钟才回过神来，说我开玩笑，说我骗她。

其实，妈咪那时候已经相信我了。

其实，妈咪那时候的心情就和我当时的心情一样，是开心的。

对不起，你女儿让你失望了。

高二，我做不到我许下的诺言，爱玩的性格，始终还在。

三个月后，刚考完了月考，我就和妈妈说我不想读了

不知道什么原因，妈妈点点头也答应了

她还说我读书的心已经不在了

而现在，过了7个月，我又想念学校了。

想念我以前所背的历史，地理，文言文，词语解释还有一切。

想念我曾经读过的生物，化学，物理。

啊！

对不起，我曾经那信誓旦旦的梦想已死了。

可是在日后的日子，我还有着另一个梦想。

希望真的会成功。

另外，我想念那种考试前夕大家互问问题的那种心情，

我想念在老师公布分数的那种紧张心情，

我想念以前的那个很在乎学业的冯君萦。

可是那个她，再也找不回来了。

就如妈妈所说，爱书的心已经死了。

2010-09-28T23:07:00.000+08:00

今天，有对情侣，他们让我想起了你。

他们的眼里有对方，他们的手牵着对方的手，他们笑着然后开心的把额头贴着对方的额头，他们住在对方的心上。

看到这一幕，我们也曾这样过，

我们也可能曾经被他人羡慕着，就像我现在的心情。

心里忽然有一股很深很深的寂寞，和很深很深的羡慕感。

只因为我太想你了。每时每刻。

你懂吗？

2010-09-27T17:17:00.000+08:00

爱你的心不死。

不知道这次有没有机会再回一起。

你说你在找着女朋友，越快越好。

你这样说，我只好拭目以待

我今天都逼着自己不找你，不碰电话

可是脑子就一直有你

想起你，总是酸酸的

要哭，但哭不出来

这一天，无所事事，

但我没有哭，

因为我知道，要学会长大

不要习惯依赖着人

而我总是依赖了你

因为我的生活圈子里，

除了你，还是你

也许你不像我，可以很洒脱，很潇洒的忘记，放开

过几天就没事

可是对于我，我真不知道我还要用多久的时间来忘记你和我之间的一切

快则两，三个月

慢则一年半载吧

笨蛋到不行

次次给人甩，还要站在原地天真白痴的认为有奇迹

就因为一个爱字

哈哈。你不笨

是我笨

放下所有自尊就只因为要挽回你

而这次，我不想多说什么，不再行动，

如果你爱我的话，你始终会回来

是我的，最后还是我的

哭过后，伤心过后，

要懂得笑

重新做回一个人的自己

虽然不知道伤心期还有多久

我真的很爱你

我在等一个人，等那一个人回到我身边。

你还会回来吗？

2010-09-27T11:57:00.003+08:00

No feeling on it anymore .

Just now when I was downloading your pic , suddenly my babe came in my room and said " gor gor . gor gor sayang jie jie horr "

HAHAHAHA. how cute .

Will gor gor come back to jie jie and sayang jie jie again ? ahahahha

No one will know what will happened on the next second .

Soon , you'll show me your new gf , and Im waiting for the moment :)

Dont simply bring a gal and lie me , I know the true .

And the day will be my worst day of my life , i think . doinkz

Good luck . T , I miss you .

2010-09-16T23:07:00.005+08:00

Thanks for take me home just now

And actually , just now when I get into your car , I dare not to see you ,

until traffic lights there , I looked at you for awhile and my tears dropped . What's wrong with me .

You're nothing to me , you're meaningless to me . You're not mine

So else you're free . You can do whatever you want and finally I let you go as well as you hope .

I cant read your heart . I cant read your mind .

You cant believe me . You cant treat me as well as before . All had been changed . Accept it .

No forcing .

F A M I L Y

Seems lots of my friend have a sweet & good family but why I doesn't have ?

There are daddy , mummy , bro , sis staying together at a sweet house , how bout me ?

I hope my house its like happy family .

Can meet everyday but not hard to meet , hard to contact .

Who else love staying at outside if your house is many members there .

When I get back to home , that's only my grandmum sleeping at her room , no others .

SIGH*

I LOVE YOU ALL BUT DONT YOU ALL UNDERSTAND MY FEELING ?

这就像是个不完整的家。

and of cause I know you all love me too , just .. situation is not depends .

No one wish it could be .

I've to grow up , learn to rely on myself . Learn to live for myself. Learn to love myself more than others .

Tell myself - Everyday is a nice day . Smile on everything .

2010-09-16T09:47:00.000+08:00

再见。

我要坚决自己的信念。

不找你，不理你

可是还是会想你。

再来慢慢忘记。你，慢慢消失。

让这一切成为我们之间的回忆。

我爱你。

2010-09-14T13:16:00.000+08:00

不管再多爱你多努力的证明全都没用了

只都等于白费力气

我的爱你不要

我的好你看不到

那算了

这次分开真的是我的错吗

我不明白

我说过

总有一天当我累了我会离开就是今天

我再也承受不住了

你的不信任你的会怀疑还有你一切一切的你以为

你不了解我我不是那样你却认为我是

那你就继续认为吧

我累了我放手

我不想我爱得那么用力可是我得到的是你的放手

我说我会自动离开你

你竟然说谢谢你的离开

至于你妈我已打过电话给她告诉她这一切会没事

虽然我知道你妈还是会胡思乱想

毕竟她会我妈不一样

我为了这件事和我全家人反面了

我为了辩驳她们全部都骂得我狗血淋头

对不起我做不到什么

以为明天可以一起看戏

以为今年的中秋节可以一起和你弄蜡烛

以为我今年的生日是你陪我一起度过

以为我们已经稳定下来了

以为我们已经很熟悉了

以为我可以一起和你离开这里去到另外的城市再过新的生活

更以为在未来的十年会嫁给你

我真的够白痴

全部都只有我在自作多情

不想再说我爱你了那只会让自己更伤

如果你真的爱我你不应该是骂我

问题发生了你应该和我一起解决那始终是我们的事

不是你个人或我个人的事

你脾气差我脾气也不会好到哪里但我就是这样忍一直忍

从今以后我不会再理你了

我不会找你了

我真的很累了

爱你真的很累

2010-09-12T11:54:00.000+08:00

Hello ,

This is the present that I gave him as his birthday present this year .

Hmmm , its like 2nd time I bought present for him .

Wee , I made the card , I love it and its nice for me .

And what I want to say is ,

I start to trust no one , except my family and him .

Its like many rumours and gossip around us.

Some more , I really can't understand why does my boy dont even reply my comment .

The feeling is so such . I dont like it :/

Heyyyy , qin ai de , you saw it ? :D

I love to spend my time with you , and because you're my everything .

You , its enough . HEEEEESS :)

Once you're mine , you're belongs to me TOTALLY , get it ?

Moon cake festival is coming soon , I gonna make our name with castle .

You made my name with castle last year and last last yearr . So turn me this year k . Woohoo !

I love you . Liew Ming Xuan <3

2010-09-07T11:23:00.001+08:00

其实，凡事都不要想得完美。

也许，你并不是我的永远，可是因为我真的爱过，所以就够了。

在一起的时间越久，就能检验彼此是否真心，越能看出两人性格是否合得来。

我们其实可以在同时间里喜欢上很多人

先来的人和我们相遇了，于是我们幸福地走在一起；

对于后到的人，只能抱以歉意，同时，祝福他早日找到属于他自己的幸福。

人生会面临无数次选择。

当给你机会选择时，你一定要谨慎。

一旦你做出了选择，就永远不要后悔。

要知道，拿得起，放得下，该断就断，该忘记的，就把它忘记。

该珍惜的，就要把它珍惜 。

细水长流的爱情才是我追求的。

我不后悔，因为我爱你

我会珍惜，因为我要的只有你

2010-09-02T23:27:00.001+08:00

You was calling me , and just wanna tell me the 3 words that I've long time never hear from you.

WO AI NI !

I thought everything will be so alright but spoiled ):

My heart is spoiling now , I think .

What are you doing ? Where are you ?

I am missing you hell much right here !

And tonight is a bad night again

2010-08-31T12:00:00.000+08:00

You want freedom , I give you :)

I give you everything that you want .

HAHAHHAHA !

And lets exchange , give me more your LOVE and CARE ,

Im your girlfriend leaa please .

Wee <3

Happy birthday Malaysia .

2010-08-29T00:02:00.000+08:00

老公生日了。那些紧张，烦恼，问题也通通带走。

老公问我，为什么当他要对我好的时候，我变得不怎么好

其实不是这样的，我做工没打给你，是因为我在弄着你的生日卡片。

本打算买的，因为自己笨，不管什么都做得不好，更何况是第一次

可是再想想，自己做好像比较有心思，所以就自己做啦

做工时候没有找你，因为当时的我在那卡片上涂涂改改·

不要以为我变了

你说我们公开了，可是。。在你朋友面前，你还是没有承认

我也算了，不追究了，不想了，你开心就好

反正时间成熟时，你自然会做

我想说，

如果，你真的很爱我，

如果，你真的觉得我变了，变乖了，

那为什么你还要在意别人怎样看我？

配不到你过十二点，有点不开心

今天我还自己走路到对面的secret receipt 买蛋糕

怕蛋糕融了，所以留在那边到6点多再回去拿，在向对面店借放冰厨。

星期一那天我休息，想到没有时间买礼物了，所以就去jj选购，

走来走起，间间去看，选了老半天，别人都看我不耐烦了，

最终，还是回到levi's买了个钱包，因为我看他旧的钱包不顺眼，真不知道他用了多久

嘻嘻

生日快乐，轩轩老公 <3

2010-08-26T23:43:00.000+08:00

Its very funny , Yea , I got what I want but it seems not that enough as I thought .

I dont understand my mind , what do I want actually ?

Once alone , once listening to those sad song , Im just feel like EMO . Duhhhhhhhh

Dislike*

And .. I miss you right now .. I feel lonely when missing you .

For you , what am I ?

A gf that you wouldn't tell others ?

A secret relationship ?

Sigh* Whatever

What also dun wanna think dy , sleep early tonight :)

Good night everyonee . heee

2010-08-22T23:21:00.001+08:00

其实一个人也可以很好只是放不下你

其实放开你并不是个不好的解脱只是我很爱你想自私的霸占你

其实我可以很开心就算没有任何人只是我还在执着着你曾经的好

其实很多很多时候我都在烦不要问我在想什么烦什么

或是当我有东西和别人讨论商量而我不告诉你内容

那全都只是因为我在烦的想的讨论的商量的都是你

离开了你你会比较开心是吧？

像现在这样的我虽然你还在我身边可是我开心吗

忽冷忽热的你我该如何面对

就连我不开心你都认为我在伪装我真的还可以怎样

当然我不可能忽然消失

可是以后的某一天当我真的承受不住了在很没有预兆之下我会自动离开

不管怎样我不后悔

至少我们曾经很相爱过

一切都不再像以前那么简单

每次一个人每一个晚上都会忍不住掉泪

我真的爱了太爱了

这样的生活还得维持多久

我不晓得

想每天的忙忙碌碌的过

这样就没那么多空闲的时间让我想太多

可能你的忽冷忽热可以让我渐渐遗忘

遗忘以前的你

我不会在表面的对你好因为你不会有感觉

我不会大胆的要求这要求那因为我没有资格

我不会嚣张的在大庭广众上牵着你抱着你因为我知道你不喜欢

好的通通都听你的

只要你不喜欢我就不做

希望自己可以很快好起来

很快的离开这个是非地

不想因为别人而活

2010-08-19T10:50:00.000+08:00

If you don't want to open our relationship , its just up to you .

I've no comment or any idea to opening it .

But I want you to know that I love you :)

Never change .

My heart is only belongs to you . Ngek ngek :D

Gonna tattoo this sat lur , will it be pain ?

Hope it'll be nice <3

God bless ;D

2010-08-16T00:49:00.003+08:00

Who knows what I look like when I cry ?

Who knows my heart is empty cause your cruel words ?

Who knows my life is nothing but you ?

I always pretend nothing when I sad .

I always smile even I'm upset .

Who knows my feeling truely ?

That's nobody ..

Its so hard to let you forgive me .

Its also hard to let you go .

I'm lonely when I miss you .

I wanna go back to your heart .

What I done , its just not enough , I know .

But you know , I treat you with my full heart .

And do you know ?
I love the feel when you hugging me ,
I love the feel when I wake up and the first person I saw is you ,
Its sweet .

<3

Whatever will be , will be .
Heart you .

2010-08-16T00:22:00.002+08:00

对你的好，没有限期。

很多很多时候，已经觉得累了

很多很多时候，出现了很多很多的问题

我想不通，不明白为什么

没有一个适合的对象让我问，更没一个适合的地方让我发泄

今天Ashley她说，她有时候很羡慕我，因为我可以什么都嘻嘻哈哈笑了就过

可是她做不到。

不是她做不到，而是我不喜欢把烦恼都留给自己，

我喜欢问大家的意见，虽然大家的意见不同，会导致我更加混扰，

但至少，在询问大家意见的时候，在那一短暂的时刻，我可以放开自己的烦恼，

让大家为我分担，再一起讨论。
至少，我可以利用那一段短短的时间来不让烦恼紧绷着自己的脑袋

其实我累了。心理上的累。

生理上的累，可以休息。

但我不是。

不管我休息多少天，多少夜，也解决不了。

这样的日子，到底还要维持多久

他说得很对，不管怎样，问题已经存在着，

每每想到，就会沉默，再变冷淡。。

谁能想象这样的感情能跑几年？

如果现在放手，重新调整自己的生活，

大家过回大家的生活，

在以后的某一天，

你我相见，大家都长大了，成熟了，

再在回一起，这样是不是比较好？

至少我们在回一起，那些问题已经都不在了。

不是因为那个问题而分开，也不是因为为了解决那个问题又在回一起。

是我的，最后还是我的。

重点是，我不甘愿。

我现在爱你。我就要一直待在这里，等待着你看到我的好和改变。

不管多久，我都会这样。我要你陪着我，看着我如何改变，如何变乖。

有时候，倔强也是一种幸福.

因为我的倔强，

因为我的固执，

我选择不放手，不放弃，

这就是对你的我。它让我有了小小的幸福。

2010-08-13T00:39:00.002+08:00

我以为，我一直都可以很好。

只要有你在，不管我做错什么，我都可以为所欲为。

因为你都会一次又一次的原谅我

我曾经不顾你的感受。我曾经背叛过你。我曾经骗过你。

骗了再骗。骗了再骗。。

我曾经把你当替代品。我曾经伤害过你。我曾经很坏过。

我不知道我让你失望了多少次，

更不知道我让你绝望了几多次，

可是你一次又一次的原谅我。

我总以为，你不会不要我的。

我总认为，我在你的心里一定有着一定的位置。

直到我们反反复复的在回一起，

直到大家的恋爱方式都变了，

直到大家对大家更加肯定，

再直到我做得最错的那一次，

你选择离开，选择不要我了。

在那个时候，才知道原来你真的有容忍度的，

因为太爱我了，所以伤得也更深了。

因为太爱我了，所以更加的失望，绝望了。

不知道已经多少次了。算也算不清了，

你终于狠心的抛下我。

心是痛的，但这是我应得的，难道不是吗？

唯有你，可以一次又一次的容忍我。

容忍我的坏。

太伤了。。

虽然我以前一次又一次的做了很多很伤害你，很对不起你的事

可是你真的可以一次又一次的原谅，包容我。

那已是以前，已是过去。

现在，我真的改了，我等着你去发现。

不急，真的不急，只要有一天，你真的看到，那就好了。

老公，我真的只要你了。只要你了。

可以的话，我希望是一辈子。

晚安。轩轩老公。。

2010-08-12T23:49:00.002+08:00

One week ago , his tongue ring lost already .

But then I asked him ' why dont you buy a new one ?'

He said ' no money '

Alright . And yesterday I bought a new one for him .

He doesnt know and I never tell .

I was so upset yesterday cause he's still very cool towards me ,

but then I received a msg of him ,

he sent “today movie cheap , I got car , we go see ba "

Who can imagine that how happy was I at the moment , ming yan looked at me , I was so high and excited . HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHH

Kept on smile , smile when serving customer , smile suddenly when nothing happened . LOL

All of them thought that I'm silly already I think.

He came and fetch me buy ticket and then went to his house ,

And then I said 'i'd bought you a new tongue ring '

He said 'i dont believe , where is it ?'

I said ' here lor '

He asked again 'where ? where ?'

I said 'here lor here lor '

HAHAHHA . I shy to take it out and He was shy too . But I not really know why he was shying there .

I took out , and gave him .. 'neh , here lor '

He smile , I know he's happy when he saw it . He doesn't want to show how happy he was. But I can really felt , he's happy at the moment .

Then he asked ' why will you buy this ? You thought ill xin dong (心动)mea ? '

I silent . But I was so freaking sweet ^^

And then , I want to tell you that I LOVE YOU , but .. I dunno why its so hard .

I cried . You hugged me deeply , I warm but my heart pain :(

Unhappy things - Skip !

And I wake up at 9 this morning , going out for breakfast with family and I went to a mini market and buy material .

Its my very first time . nyek nyek .

Sandwiches seems easy to make but its not easy for me .

First time make , I failed ):

So that I gave my family and asked them to enjoy :) LOL .

They very 38 , keep laugh me =.= Maybe they laugh that Im stupid , cause i never get into kitchen and make something that can eat by myself gua ? dont know :/

Second round , success gua i think . HAHAHA .

So i packed it up and asked mummy fetch me to go to that salon which tom's work at .

I reached and I called him .

He came out and saw me , I felt shy again suddenly ><

I gave it to him , and again , his shy and happy face appeared :) Just like last night . hoho . Really really cute . I love it ! It was second time I saw that cute expression on his face <3

I'm happy . Can you feel that I'm changed ? Can you feel that I'm already changed ?

Blek , I love you <3

2010-08-10T23:57:00.000+08:00

其实我累了。

你的话，好伤。

你错了。

因为我不会放弃。

你错了。

因为我不再是那样的人。

你错了。

因为我改了，你还不知道。

你错了。

你说我可以放下你。

你错了。

你说我会放下你。

你通通都错了。

你唯一对的是，

你原谅了我。

下辈子，你不用担心了。

我对自己有信心。

2010-08-10T22:33:00.000+08:00

其实你知道吗？

今天你说，

认识我，是你人生最后悔，最遗憾的事。

你顿时起了鸡皮疙瘩，泪再留下，我只能接受你现在所说的东西，除了这样，我还能做什么？还能说什么？

是的，我错了。太错了。

至少我改了。对得起良心。

我要快乐。不该是烦恼，不该是懊恼。

因为我改了。

麻木的想办法，想做更多的东西来打动你，

今天再想想，不需要吧。至少我真的改了。

可是我也不会忘记答应过你要做你好好的女朋友。

至于我答应要做的乖乖女朋友，我已经做到啦^^

要开心的度过每一天，虽然现在我们不再像以前一样了，

可是没关系。

有一天，我们会甜蜜如初 :) 我知道。我相信。

我爱你。轩。

2010-08-10T01:09:00.000+08:00

I love you .

2010-08-10T00:31:00.004+08:00

Oh god . Finally finally i get him back .

I'll be the guai guai lui :) never bad again .

Learning to be a perfect gf . <3

And one more thing i wanna to say ,

I'll never forgive that guy . The one who always making story and rumors around here and there .

Pls lar , dont tell something that never happen to your friend .

You tell lies to my mummy , my sis and my tom .

Trying to rogue somebody else .
And you never tell others that how bad you are , right ?

You told others that tom beat me ? But did you told them that you slapped me that night again ?
You asked tom to leave , you said you'll leave too , but did you ? you were followed me until my mum came .
You're fake .

You promised tom that never want me back , but after that what you did ?
Once tom leave , you holding the chance to ask me why I just cant let him go but let the 1 and half year's relationship gone ? Then you cried and said a lot of things , bull shit !
What you cried for ? I just dont understand .
You told tom that I asked you to give me chance ?
You told tom that I asked you break up with wawal ?
WHEN?
Dont SIN KA LAN again I TELL YOU !
Why I rather stay tom hardly also dun wanna be back wid you ?
That's cause you're too annoying . TOO DOG !

Wanna fight with my boy that night right ? Damn lame .

Just now called my boy and acting that you're vaness's cousin ?

Who also can recognize your shit sound lar =.=

This is not the first time , remember last time ?

When tom called you , you dare not to answer the call ,

Once answer , just acting that you're kelvin's brother ? Yiii .

When you got a brother ? HHAHAHA !

Love me ? If you love me just let me go ,

If you love me then pls respect me and yourself .

Dont , dont care my thing , it's not of your business anymore .

What I do , Where I go , you needn't to ask vaness or tom .

Is just my problem . Not yours .
Dont disturb my life . Dont disturb my family too .

Treat your gal better lar . Throw her alone at dong kui that night .

I was keep asking you to go back , but you dont care . Are you still a boy ?

How can you dont answer your gal's call when you know that she's alone there and waiting for you ?

And I really dont und lar

You slapped me again ? Why huh ? Cause I love tom but not you ?
Cause I can hold him back like crazy but I never treat you so ?

How can I trust you ? How can I believe that you'll never slap me again?

hahhaha ! It's very impossible ..

Do you have the qualification for slapping me ?

Just cause I wanna find my tom , then you slapped me ?

Dont think im blur and drunk that day , I never !

Fuck off from my life .

You're the only one who I hate most and not for awhile .

IS FOREVER !

Never and never want to see your shit face anymore .

Once others mention bout you , I just feel like vomit .

Fake guy , Dog guy , JUST FUCK OFF ! KELVIN CHAN MUN HOU !
YOU ARE JUST LIKE A SHIT !
I HATE YOU !

Dont kacau my life anymore .

Xuan ,
I know it's very hard to make you believe me , but .. at least you've gave me the last chance .

Thanks . I'm happy :) I love you .

Dont care others , Dont care what they all say ,

live for myself , live for my life .

You and me , my life .

2010-08-07T03:01:00.001+08:00

不知道该怎么做。

即使很伤心，很心疼，也没人会懂。

我终于了解，终于体会到你之前的痛了。

对不起，真的很对不起。

我只能说，我欠你太多了。

我很牛，我不会放弃。

不会放弃的烦你，求你，找你，想你和爱你。

可能回不到过去，但我也要试试，至少我曾经试过。

你很绝，这是第一次，你对我这样。

我吓到了，你懂吗？

很多时候，很想哭，但我知道你要面子，所以忍了，忍得很幸苦。

当一个人时，脑袋又出现一大堆全部关于你的东西。

我说过，除了你，我谁都不理，

所以现在，你知道吗？我只有你，而且我不需要其他人。

这次，我错了，错的无药可就。

所以，我知道错了，也正在想办法挽救，就算我知道成功率很低。

到底要怎么做，你才可以原谅我

我好烦好烦，我好想好想你。。

每一秒都在想办法要回你的心。

你说你死心了。你说我不再重要。你说我不可以要，不值得要。

你说就算要你死，你也不会要回我。你说你已经把我丢出你的心里了。

可是你也说了，你不会不要我。你也说了，你只要我乖，那什么都可以。

原来你后来所说的那些，只不过是要止住我的眼泪罢了。

人不能自私，不能霸道，但是对不起

我就是这么自私的想拥有你。这么霸道的不讲道理，每天的烦着你。

你的每一个小动作，都变了。

昨晚，你没有那牙刷给我，

昨晚，你不让我用你的杯，

昨晚，你没有要我和你一起的上楼睡觉。

昨晚，你说你要我，只要我乖，我听话。我答应，而你也答应了。

今早，你没叫我起身冲凉，

今早，你没叫我刷牙，

今早，你没拿水给我喝。

今早，你又说我不可以要，你不要我了。

全部都给你说完，为什么，为什么你可以这么绝？为什么？

我会继续这样做很多事，就算你多我多坏都好，我不理。

因为你值得。

我爱你。真的很爱你。

2010-08-04T13:14:00.000+08:00

I'm sorry to him . To my lovely boyfriend .

It's cause I did something wrong but I never tell him .

But then , someone called my tom last night and told him that what I did .

I thought he would be very angry but he never ..

He's just don't wanna argue with me , cause he know what kind of girlfriend I am .

After argue , I'll just like no mood , down and angry . At last also need him to coax me . lol

I'm lucky , cause I met him .

I'm lucky , cause he loves me .

Love a person , not because of their appearance , it's cause their HEART .

Don't try to judge others boyfriend or girlfriend's appearance .

Why are they coupling ? There have a reason that we never know .
So don't judge anything by looking it's surface .

Don't start a relationship if you know it will end one day .

Pretty or handsome is nothing if him/her heart is empty :)

Trying to be happy and smile everything or facing some problem ,

Trying to don't think bout negative way , my life is cheerful :) Aww

2010-08-02T12:00:00.000+08:00

hee .

2010-07-28T15:41:00.001+08:00

Huhu , I'm back .

Sunday , we watched a movie , ren jian xi ju . wohoo !

Funny till pants drop . Laugh till teeth drop xDD

Damn funny .

Monday,

My dear ponteng again cause he wants to accompany me . My fault, my fault ;p

We went mcd .

Usually will take pics when we bored .

So ..

And then and then , felt that I'm freaking lenglui . HAHAH !

He said , we married already .

I said , yea , we must treat each other like real husband and wife .

The feelin .. is really damn funny .

He wants me to tell my mum that he already married with me .

And I told . LOL !

I miss the moment when we were lying on bed ,

I look at you , you look at me ,

and you asked : how ? want kiss me lea ;p

hahaha ! I turned my head to another side ,

after that , turned you look at me ,

I asked : how how ? want kiss my lips lea ? xDD

Don't know why , just like to stick with you .

wee .

2010-07-25T17:12:00.003+08:00

Went parade with meiimeii leong yesterday but just for her lunch . LOL !

Thought singk at kbox gea , full and expensive.

So changed to ebox . From 3 sing till 7 .

sing till half , my dee came to find me .

miss him deep like hell . hoho .

After that we went oldtown , and took pics .

aww . Nice !

Then night we went fuk seng to having our supper and chitchat there .

And later , he said wanna go jj buy ticket wor .

Watch movie tonight .

hahhahaha

Baby , I love you much and much right now .

You make me forget all the unhappy thing .

I'm so so grateful .

Thanks god to arrange us to be together .

I swear , I promise , I do treasure you all the time .

As you said , you'll not let me go and leave .

I'll do like what you said to me . Aww .

As her question, ' three years ago she hurt you and why three years later you still want to be with her ? She most love not you , is kelvin . '

Dee , let's prove to all of them , they'll know who're my most love .

Yea , three years ago I hurt you but it does not means three years later I will hurt you once again right ?

I just want you to trust me , believe everything that I do .

Wait and see clearly , try to feel my feel , try to touch my heart .

And one day , you'll know my mind <3

2010-07-22T00:03:00.003+08:00

Aww .

Finally it's a month that we being together . Belong's to each other . It's really fast .

Hahaha . Baby , I gonna tell the world that how fish were you last night ;p

You were cried on my shoulder , rely on your pillow , hugged me deeply and told me all your feelin .

How touched man !

It's the very first time you cried in front of me .

My tears make you cry .

Sigh* Touching touching touching *

And we hang tesco and jj today . Again , wanna tell others what we did at tesco ;p

We curi makan there right ? HAHAHAHAHAH !

2 hotdog , 1 fried wonton and 3 sushi . erk . bad but fun . weee ;)

Having many and many happy moment with you .

I will , I do throw out all of my thing and only stay with you .

I'm blissful cause I got you , so dee , you need not to feel that you're not good enough .

That one should be me .

I can't forgot how bad I was . I can't forgive that how I treated you before .

Just let me to compensate .

Promised me not to let my tear drop again .

Wink wink*

I believe that what I did , what I'd done , it's deserves .

;)

And last , is the time to ask me once again ,

'laopo , do you love me ? ' ;p

'yea yea . 1 sheng 1 si '

hohoh . This question everyday appear in our topic ;p

aww , I LOVE YOU LIEW MING XUAN ! <3

2010-07-18T16:56:00.002+08:00

爱情里，信任很重要。

什么都不求，只求你信任。

我爱你。

为你付出，不管什么，都觉得值得 <3

2010-07-16T17:12:00.000+08:00

其实，好想痛痛快快的大哭一场，

不管是为了什么事

）‘：

躲在一个没有人看到的角落，

反省自己。哭得痛快

再重新望着自己，告诉自己

是时候学会长大

强迫自己想回所有的不愉快

哭过以后，把所有都忘了

也许这会是对我最好的发泄方式

2010-07-16T17:05:00.000+08:00

''Be optimistic" she told me .

想着想着，烦再多也都没用啊。

乐观点，面对事情也都容易解决。

发现这个世界好现实，好恐怖。

当一个人什么都没有的时候，死的日子也渐渐降临。

亲情，爱情和友情，你会选择哪一个？

当然，我会选亲情，再来是爱情。

而友情，我已经不在乎了。

曾经以为好朋友一两个已经够了，

现在才知道，更本就不需要好朋友。

不可能永久的。

大家不可能一辈子都在一起。

一定会有分开的一天。

少时的天真契约，

说好做一辈子的好朋友，

但结果。。什么都不是。

分分钟已成了一个擦肩而过的路人。

这就是社会的现实。

少了联系，就忘了大家。

再次重逢，也都没了话题。

女生间，是非多。

哪来永恒的友情？

全都骗人了。

做人，看开点，乐观点，潇洒点。

自己也会跟着莫名的开心。

以为自己拥有一对很好的姐妹，

8年感情了，那又怎样？

会为自己真心付出而不求回报的，

会永远无怨无悔的为我的，

永远都只有家人。

妈咪，我爱你！

2010-07-14T23:46:00.000+08:00

One day passed . Again is a happy day cause you're with me ;p

You're my everything , my only one .

Can't live without you even .

Wake up in the morning , I would heard your morning kiss and your man sound ;D

When night , I need your hug then i only can fall into a sweet dream and have a tight night .

I don't care how others to judge us or whatever , I just want to love you with my whole heart and sincerely .

And now , I'm again in your house and using your laptop to writing this blog .

I do LOVE this feeling . Freaking sweet ! Wee .

Even you're watching your lame and bored cartoon there =.=''

Gonna take pic with you later ;p

Dee, Hug me now please <3

Trust me , I HEART YOU !

2010-07-14T13:28:00.002+08:00

也许是我的迷惘，搞不清楚自己的立场。

也许是我的愚昧，直到现在才发现他不是我的未来。

得过且过的生活，并不是我所追求的

现在的我，很快乐。很幸福。

不用再为了许多事情而烦恼

有了现在的你，我突然觉得自己被宠

有了现在的你，我不见已久的笑容再次出现

生活有了乐趣。有了欢笑。就是因为有了你

3年里，发现了很多很多事。

但这3年里，却没有失去你的消息。

没想到的是，竟然3年后的你，还会再相信我。

然后再和我在回一起。

你好笨，哪里有人会像你这样，被人骗了那么多次，还会选择相信。

不过我保证，我不会再骗你。

因为我真的好爱好爱你 <3

嘻嘻

虽然不知道我们的以后会怎样，

可是我会珍惜和你在一起的每一分钟

当我感到无助的时候，你出现了 ;P

哈哈

爱你

我的轩

2010-07-05T21:36:00.001+08:00

忘了自己的生活模式。
也忘了自己那熟悉但又陌生的生活了。
回不到过去，也就让自己适应现在的生活处境。

虽然有点枯闷，但我也没其他能力去过自己想要的生活。

唉。
人好复杂，刚才看了她的部落，看后就心酸了。
爱一个人太深，最后受伤的只有自己。

他终于被我逐出了。在我心里已存在着另外一个。
也只有这样，我才可以潇洒的把他忘了。

我爱我现在的他。也不会让他的心再破碎一次。

2010-06-23T00:38:00.004+08:00

又一天了。

眼睛累累的。生活闷闷的。
再没有人会在乎我过的如何。
再没有人为了无聊的小事和我大闹一场。
再没有人陪我诳街买东西。
再没有人陪我笑说天地。
电话也再不会响。

这样的生后，好无聊，好闷。

使力的避开大家的视线，最后却又想念对方了
停着脚步不去找他，最后脚也不听话了

他求也求过了，哭也哭过了，我却强忍泪水的狠狠拒绝。
我的心也痛了.真的痛了。

每想到你一次，我就会静了下来，静静的想，再静静的掉泪。
为什么？为什么？

太多回忆了，放不下吗？

不，放不下和舍不得只是借口。

是不习惯吗？
。。。。

嗯，我就是不习惯了没有你的日子。
可是我会慢慢习惯。

别傻了。
不要回味着过去，应该往前看。
旧的不去，新的怎么来？

即使爱着，都没用了。

我累了。

开心的，洒脱的放开这一年半的感情
相信你可以找到更好的

以后结婚别别忘了请我。
我一定也会带着我的另一半一起出席

大家都要幸福的
我们之间的快乐，也只能当成回忆了

没想到我们会有这么的一天，
天真的为我们的未来做了打算，
无知的为我们的孩子娶了名字

都没用了，不可能实现了

我真不知我还有多久的时间来伤心，只希望真的可以尽快看开

摸透了大家的脾气，性格
深深的爱上了对方
最后却因为摸透了，才发现合不来，
残酷的必须分开

说是说会改会改，改了，不久又恢复从前
都猜得到我们的结局会如何，
何不干脆放手

雨过天晴。
明天会更好

2010-06-17T22:37:00.000+08:00

No love but friend <3

2010-06-16T23:19:00.000+08:00

Those're just a nice memory for us.
I'll never forget that.

Sigh*
You can find a better one. But please don't slap a gal who you love, you'll regret after that.

No gal will lik a boy who hurt her.

Without you, I am nothing. I feel bored and lonely but what can I do?

I used to be the best for you ..
I used to beat you when you're naughty .. and now .. I've no chance .

You're the only one who willing accompany me for watch a lame movie, chat nonsence and bla ..
I can't even find another one ..

You love to tell lies but you never flirt wid other.
You love to hangout wid friend but you never smoke and drunk.

You're very important you know?
I thought I can be your wife in our future, but can I?

)':
I need you.
I heart you.
I miss you.

But I hate you too.

Friend, trust what god give us .

If you're mine, god will arrange us to be together once again .

nightss

2010-06-16T23:08:00.001+08:00

It's the time to let me forget a guy who hurt me deep.

He asked me today ' Is that still having any chance to hold back our relationship?'

I said ' NO ! '

HAHAHA. Finally, I can do that !

I must learn how to protect myself.
Those scars are still on my body, photo will be upload tomorrow mayb if i free :D

We're still friend.
A very good friend (:

Gonna take pic with him 2ml, a new life.

lalala.

I love you. But I've to kick you out from my heart. Sorryy babyy

You know what's the reason

2010-06-14T00:41:00.001+08:00

那一夜，你站在那门口大声说要分手。

那一夜，你大力的在我脸上打了我四巴。

那一夜，你重复又重复的说了几百次分手。

第二天早上，我轻轻的抱着你，可是你还是坚持的说分手。

现在，我成全你。

你却哭着说不要，说舍不得。

你答应过我，不再说分手，不管发生什么事。

你答应过我，不再打我，不管我做错什么。

你说过，我永远是你的小公主，你要永远的保护着我。

你说过，你会好好疼我，不让我受到伤害。

最后，我受伤了。

你给的伤。

上一次，我笨得原谅了你。

相信你说的不再打我。

现在，我不会再信你了。

因为前天你所给我的四巴掌。

我永远都记得。

你无法想象，当时我被你巴的心情。

一直相信你是最爱我的，可是我却被一个我以为是最爱我的人伤害了。

不管我的泪再怎么流，你还是毫无反应。

那一刻起，我不再相信你。

文好。没有了你，我还是会好好的。

你知道吗？我真的好爱你。可是对不起。我会慢慢放下你。

请不要忘记，说分手的是你，不是吗？

舍不得又怎样，还是要放手了。

Babe, I never want to let you alone.

2010-06-07T23:58:00.001+08:00

I love you.

This is the point for me to write this post.

Sometimes, I am in a bad mood, so that I'll scold you, but pls baby, don't forgot that when you're in a bad mood, you were just same as me.

Sometimes, I text with my friend, you're getting angry, yea, I know, bcause you never try to chat with gal once you with me right? But baby, I know how to control myself. They're only my friend, you're totally different with them. Cause I love you.

Sometimes, I trying my best to make you laugh when you're suffering, but you never laugh at all, somemore you asked me to be quiet :/ Sorry for disturb and my nosy.

Sometimes, you're freaking cute and you're lovable but sometimes you're not :/

Baby, I am tired to guess your heard but I am interesting bout that. HAHAHHAHAHAHA

And last, cause you're cute, so i never want to let you alone.

I'll pull you right hand until the end of our life. I swear and I promise <3

突然有好多话想说。

2010-06-07T23:47:00.002+08:00

宝贝，我们在一起都有520天了哦？
这段时间，真的很开心有你
从开始的陌生，演变到当下的熟悉，真不简单。

一年半了
你对我好，我知道
你对我坏，都过去了

现在的我，只想好好的爱你，对你好
别再想回过去

是，我承认，我有对不起你
做了一些不该做的事，
被你说中了

可是老婆要改。
一直就这样的好好对你
就像今天，老婆答应你

我的世界就是你

老公，我爱你

2010-05-18T22:41:00.003+08:00

以为自己有能力很潇洒的放开一切，都头来，还是自以为是。

男孩真的那么喜欢看女孩吗？难道有了女朋友，一样不满足吗？

想更贪心的去欣赏另一个吗？我真不明白。

爱一个人，眼中就只有她一个，那有空闲时间去望另一个相貌不端正的小孩子？难道不是吗？

真奇怪。真的很奇怪。

我占有欲非常强，可是我会学着改变。

因为社会也学着现实。

我要变的跟超人一样，就算有人侵犯我的男人，我也一样可以假装看不到。

我要成功。

爱，可真无聊。

2010-05-16T22:45:00.001+08:00

Kinda busy nowadays. Cause I am in a working life right now.

Super less meet my friend already. Sigh* Maybe they gonna forget me soon. Who knows?

Even someone birthday, she did open a party, no one inform me too. So how? Well ..

Less meet - not close - distarce far - END !

Is that still having any meaning to continue the friendship? :$

I am a happy girl. Just lik before (: You don't care bout me, I won't care bout you.

Being myself and finding a best life for my own.

Working working working,

Money money moneyy $$

2010-05-06T11:17:00.006+08:00

好久没打爱情日记了。

我不明白，不晓得我们到底算什么。

爱，爱一个人的感觉是怎样？

怎么我一直都缺乏安全感？

你是爱的我，我知道。

可是可不可以停止那些无谓的吵架？

我累了，真的累了。

放手，怕舍不得。

我该怎么办？

我真的很怕会失去你，我们之间可以变的很迅速，你是知道的。

这一秒，我们很窝心的互握对方的手谈心。

下一秒，我们却很冷淡的连句话也不说。

很可怕。

好像真的随时你会走掉，就这样结束了。

2010-05-02T08:41:00.002+08:00

I quit the ShiningTeens competition already.

Many people asked me that why do i quit? HAHAA. My reason is damn long. um. Let it go ba :/

I'm alright. HAHAA. Finally I go back to my normal life.

I miss you. You know who I'm talking bout right? The one who always came my blog and only listen my music. HAHA (:

I knew you angry me ): Sorry lerr.

Gonna watch the two movie,

Ip man 2 and iron man.

Ticket full until next sunday, BIG SWT ! =,=''

2010-04-25T11:09:00.000+08:00

It's a new day, it should be a very nice day but cause of some happened, my mood is freaking down now ):

Sigh* What should I do?

I'm going to fitness embassy later. How I go? Thinking.. UMM~

Life suck :/

2010-04-13T17:05:00.000+08:00

Money money money.

I want. I need. I love <3

Earning. Saving.

My dream will be true (:

2010-04-11T01:04:00.000+08:00

Hoho. What a meaningful, happy and tired day.

Just realise they all are so lovely and nice (: I do like them, I means ShiningTeens Top20 (: And ofcause naiba. :D

Tired but happy. Once finish i saw some of them were in parade and intending singk, I didn't join cause I really tired enuf. LOL !

6-7 pm reach home, never change clothes and straight sleep until 12am =.='

So pro ! hahaa.

Gotta bath now ler. Smelly~ Yuck ;p

Pic picss -

Went sub today at the morning and having makeup. So shy when look into the mirror, this girl is over pretty xD

boy makeup also. wakaka! how cute. His name JASON PHANG ! ;DD

Terresa, Sophia and Vivian (:

2010-04-07T22:12:00.000+08:00

Long time never update my lovely bloggie dy.
Miss it muchiee <3

I am so damn stressful nowadays, I really don't understand what are them don't be thoughful abit? They are selfish enought. Just thinking how was their feeling. SIGH*

That day hang with my babe xue ting, nice to meet her and we are having the same situation. Pity us ):
Btw, i love you loh xue ting (: <3

And him, my only him, KELVINCHAN.
He is doing many things to warm and touched my heart, I have no idea why do I continue for hurting him, I must treasure him and loving him, even he's stupid. LOL !

I love my life and I hate gossip.
ONLY 8 PO AND 8 GONG WILL TALKING AND DISCUSSING OTHER'S THING.
Those are not of their business, isn't it? =.="

LAME.

I want earn money, save money and buy what I want and love.

It's my life !

Lastest me (:

Fitness embassy.

2010-03-29T15:04:00.000+08:00

Feeling down, sad and moody.

Where's my facebook account? ): My facebook is so naughty ):

My fan page, 1240 fans all gone. Have to reopen a new one.

By the ways, I dunno who are the bad-hearter want to hark my account. Sobss )';

Support me and Join my page.

http://www.facebook.com/pages/KBOX-ST-F1-ANGEL/104154319622690?ref=mf

Press it (:

Thanks for support !

2010-03-28T01:23:00.000+08:00

http://www.facebook.com/pages/KBOX-ST-F1-ANGEL/107465299283307

(:

Support me support me support support me pleaseee .

Thankew much muchie <3

Join my fan pagee.

2010-03-23T13:15:00.000+08:00

Received call from KBOX, I enter to the competition. The shining teen.

I though it was just a game and just to had a try but at last I been enter it.

Alright, Just go and know what will happen in this competiton bahh.

Support me worrr (;

2010-03-19T11:54:00.001+08:00

What a damn bored life.

Suddenly hate those people who always flirt. They can flirt with few persons at the same time.

Pro !

Going KL later. Siennn.

Three days cant online. Duhhh. =.="

God ar, help me please.

Many stress on my mind. )':

0.o

~~ilovemyvin~~

2010-03-13T13:28:00.004+08:00

Clinic. After fight. After crying.

Just have a fight with my uncle.

It was fucking terrible.

What a terrible house is it? I cant imagine what would happen if I continue for staying here.

I tot I have a warm house, Yea, I have.

But because of the silly and terrible guy, all had been changed.

Alright, I do love my family much except him.

He was a bad guy. He catched by police, he went to jail for many times.

Well, ugly thing dont say too much. swt =.="

The situation was a memories that unforgetable.

He plus me to the wall of the corner, he pulled my hair and hit to the wall.

The scar balls appear on my hair immediately.

I dunwan to see the doctor at first, cause I wannt show it to my whole family.

But it was pain enuf.

No choice. So kelvin's cousin fetch me to the clinic. And the doctor said a lot of things. Give me some suggest that what should I do.

After that I go fuk seng yumcha. It was getting well.

But once I back home, my tears came out from my eyes )':

I scare, I worry.

I hate him !

And my mummy cried cause she felt heart pain to see me sad.

I pretend nothing. I dunwan to see my mum sad cause of me.

I knew she is the one who most love me. I knew <3

Once I get happened, once I get bully by others,

my mummy is always the most sad. Of cause my sis and my mama are included.

I am proud to have them <3

They are always here when I needed.

Exky.

2010-03-09T22:17:00.005+08:00

你们觉得我不在乎你们

一个星期六天，六天都和你们一起过，

你们说我不在乎你们，

可是你们有真正为我想过吗？

上体育，你们每次都很匆忙，

我就每次只好一个人跟在后面，

因为我脚不够你们长。

你们说我多朋友，

你们在我心中并不算什么，

你们有问过我吗？

我一直很努力的参入你们的话题，

可是为什么。。我觉得我的话总是被忽略？

也许是我想太多，希望真的是。

今天昕问我当你们是什么，

我说好姐妹，

我知道你们不相信，

可是我说的是真的。

你们说我什么事情都只告诉薇，

那是因为我在和你们说我的事情时，

你们像是不在乎。可能又是我在想太多。

我很小孩子，

今天雯会主动和我说话，

薇没有用串的语气和我说话了，

我真的很开心。

我要的就只是这样。

真的这么难吗？

我是你们的一分子吗？

我自己都在怀疑。

每次你们都只会叫薇，

不管什么事，我只在她旁边，

可是为什么你们就是看不到我？

那天我哭了，

我告诉薇我的感觉，我的想法，

不知不觉，眼泪就掉下来了。

也许我们真的是有距离吧，

我不知道。。

我总是沉默的在一旁，

因为没有人会听我说话。

你们的眼神都很怪。

也许你们认为我朋友圈子太广，

就算我没有你们我也无所谓。

错了。不是这样的。

我Facebook没有加那个名字，

不是因为我不要，不想，

而是我电脑改不到。

我和你们的话题似乎越来越少，

唯有今天，

雯会主动笑着和我说话，

薇不再那么串（她说我也很串）哈哈

昕问我当你们是什么

莹来和我谈天，

以前的感觉回来了。

我要说的，都说完了。

明天不懂又要怎样面对你们。

不管怎样，我爱你们。

不要再怀疑了，好吗？

2010-03-06T04:48:00.002+08:00

都选了，又矛盾了。

I don't want to hurt any one.

Last night, I told you that I don't love you actually. You were silent.
I was bad ): But I dunwan to lie on you.
Although you're my boyfriend but my feel seems ain't as strong as you think.
I don't love you, it's a fact.

Sorry to say this. I'm sure I'll once again to fall in love with you.

<3 KELVIN CHAN.

Anson-

What I can say is, I hope you can give up me hardly. I am not your fate, maybe now. Who knows? I dunwan to hurt you. Leave me please ): I cant anti you to do everything. Cause you are not mine, I am not belongs to you too. I dunwan you to waste your time on me, I dunwan you to wait a girl who got her boyfriend. Unfair to you. Go and find a new target, then forget me... This is the best way to you.

For you. ANSON KONG.

2010-03-03T01:01:00.001+08:00

Anson Kong.
You're good to me.
Maybe lots of people are making rumous to destroy my feeling towards you, but I dont care. Cause I can see how good you are and I'm the only one person know how you treat me.
I wont believe what they saying. Cause I know you really love me.

Well, at last I choose him. I am really sorry.
I em seh dak. I don't feel lik want to lost you but can't.
I belongs to him, that's why and all.

Sorry to hurt you bad.
You asked me why I still want to choose the person who hit me, hurt me, beat me and also dunwan to choose a guy who never. I can tell you, I just follow my feeling.

Maybe, maybe I'll regret cause I choose him and not you, but what can I do?
One leg two ship? Impossible right?

Good luck to you.
Forget me is the best way for you. I dunwan to hurt you again.

Thanks for giving me the nice memories. Even it was a short time but at least it was having full of happiness.

THANK YOU !

Restart.

2010-03-03T00:50:00.001+08:00

I being with KELVIN CHAN now.

Is the time to throw out other things from my mind.

I know what to do, even I cant love you much like last time.

Just give me some time, maybe it can recover my heart that ady broken.

Maybe one month? Half month? One year or.. ? I dunno.

You're changing. Very obviously.

And I do wish that you wont change back on a day.

I really scare and worry. But it doesn't matter. I used to stay you when you wanna break up, but now I wont.

This is the last chance that I giving, no next time.

Maybe I'm stupid cause I forgive a person who hit me and hurt me but never mind.

Yea, I am stupid :p

I trust myself. As I said, I trust him, no why.

LOL !

God bless me. Haleluya.

2010-03-01T02:16:00.001+08:00

Before record the video he gave me.

He came my house, wait me at outside from 2am until 10am

waiting. wearning the cap that I gave him as present.

Never want to take out.

2010-03-01T01:42:00.000+08:00

I'm freaking confused !

I love kelvin more. But I dunno why when I being with him, the anson will appear on my brain, and against when I being with anson, I'll think of kelvin. Why? What's wrong? )':

Anson - You're stupid. You said you can accept everything cause of me.

Well, so I asked you is it can accept me together with him while with you, actually I just want to text you.

I really scared when I reveiced your answer. You said you can cause you dunwan to lost me. So what you can do is accept !

Kelvin - You're changing good I know. I can see. I really hope I can fully forgive you but I dunno why it's so hard.

Just now, I went to his gonggong's house, after that his gong asked vin : Who is that girl?

Kelvin ans : You can't recognize mea? hehe (fake smile)

Gong : Chun hai !

His gong straight scolded him when his gong know that girl is me, ANGELYING!

Well, his gong dislike me and my family dislike him, is that still having any point to mention our relationship? It's freaking hard right? I no choice to meet your family and you no way to come in my house anymore. What to do?

You came my house, you saw my grandmum and mummy, you was scared. What you scare for?
I know you're changing good, being the best cause of me, but I dunno what I want. I can't to force myself and close my eyes then pretend nothing happened. I can't. )':

I am confused ! I want stick with you, but I can't forget and forgive your pass. )':
I hope to try the new one, but it's unfair to everyone. I'll think of vin when I being with him.

I have no feeling. I can't love a person like how much I loved vin. All passed !

Cause of your job, you changed lots and you're regret now.
Kelvin Chan, do you remember? I know we'll be very hard to mentain our relationship after you found the damn job. I asked you to stop, I said I rather want your accompany, I also dunwan those money. Then you asked me to find a job then you wont work anymore.

You used to scold me and hit me with bad word and rude action when you're in a bad mood.

You used to scold me and hit me when we're argue.

Your cousin told me - Although kelvin de eng is bad but he's learning. Although he's not rich but he's still give you some happiness, he hitted you cause just he's in the bad mood.. He know he's wrong... when he hitted you..

Yea. I fully agree.

I really hope to be single now. I think this is the best way ba. Dont force me. Dont make me confused. I want to be the happy girl without any stress.

Let's be friend. (:

When the time is correct, I know what I should do. Is it? Agree?

不要逼我做选择，可以吗？

I'm here. Who wants me?

2010-02-27T16:58:00.000+08:00

Kelvin chan mun hou, what you did, what you done, you'd forgotten? You go beg my family, beg them to forgive you lar. Last time when I did wrong, how you treat me? You asked me to beg your daddy, beg him to ask you to forgive me, well, turning now, I want you go beg wholemy family. Can you do that? You said do not said... break up when we being together, but how bout you. I never say before right? After you said that, I used to hug your big leg and asked you dont leave me, do you remember that?

you said you wont beat me, wont hit me and blablabla, but at last how? If you really love me, will you do that? ): When you were playing dota, you lose, then gem ngam i ask you something at the moment, what you said to me, you said : diam lar, i dunwan to hear your ass sound and see your ass face ar. When I call you bu...t you are not in mood, you will said : Ish, close the phone lar pls. your ass sound so fan arrr. And the most hurt is : I being with you just want to fuck you, I rather da fei gei myself aso dun need you. xxx's body is nicer than you. DIU ! Can a gf tahan a bf till lik that? One year dy, why you dont treasure me when I am with you?

Dont just tell all your friend how you treat me, tell them what you hurt me also. They will nothing to said after they hear. I can sure ! I love you before and I hate you now. I go school but didnt eat even I am hungry lik hell, for what? for save the money and spend with you. You said you want go genting with me, then... you have no money, well, i paid. what you said to me now? you said you spend lot on me? f you. You scold me without reason, after that when i asked you wha is the reason that you scold me, your answer is : too stressful, Not enough sleep, you are ugly. WHATTHEHELL !

s'Angel Ying Until now, i havent change my password. all my password is bout you. sigh. is the time to changeeeeeeeeeeeeee. Honestly, you are still in my mind, but anson too.

What should I do?

2010-02-27T00:19:00.000+08:00

Have a nice dating with Anson Kong today. Hoho.
I dont und why all my friend seems support anson more than kelvin lor. HAHAHAHAHHA.
Thanks for theirs' comment. I have the final decision, I BEING WITH ANSON KONG. <3

He gave me a big kiss with his big mouth xDD

2010-02-26T01:22:00.005+08:00

I love u, angel ying
why?
dun ask me why
because love u
it is no nid any reason
each time i look at u, my heart also will move faster
u charmful?
i think so.
at least to me.
u are charmful and beautiful.
no matter hw u change to
u are the one who accompany and i choose for my future life.
I CAN SAY
my life cant without u
why?
dun ask me why again.
because u are my WIFE!!!
I will hv my university study life.
i will finish my degree.
and cum out to find a job with a gud salary.
all my salary will spend to us.
i will take care u and marry u in 30
at tat time, u just 28.
pregant at 30 is a gud time for u ba?
u told me, maybe u will go to KL next year when i writting this.
dun knw why.
my heart.
cnt use a word to describe.
u ask me go kl with u.
i no nid to use a second to think jiu agree le
why.
because u are important than everything to me.
ppl said, listen to wife, u will be a rich man.
i think so. and i believe it.
so, i will 100% listen to u, wife.
i wont let u alone.
i promise u, I WONT
but hw abt u?
do u with me forever?
i really hope so.
and im waiting the day u say
I DO I DO I DO!!!!!
♥

Anson Kong sent me.

Kelvin dont fan angel anymore. beacuse kelvin love you. cannot angel everyday unhappy. just want angel everyday
happy and smile. i still waiting for you. pls let me say one more again. i love you forever♥ .

.

Kelvin Chan sent me.

Who I should follow?

I really dunno. I dunno.

Kelvin is changing now, he treat me damn well now, but he did beat and hit me.

Anson is always the good towards me, but I know kelvin longer than him.

ISH ! FAN 9 SEI .

Let's smile !

2010-02-24T00:36:00.000+08:00

Hello, let's smile (:

Denggg,

2010-02-23T22:58:00.001+08:00

My relationship is such like a shit !

It was drop into a fucking complicated situation.

SIGH ! *

2010-02-18T01:05:00.004+08:00

My lovely sis wrote-

"I love you" is a promise? forever? or just say only? If you love a person, you'll respect ger; If you love a person, you wont let her cry and beg you without pride; If you love her, you wony hurt her, beat her, ignore her, If you really love her, you'll treasure every moment when she is be with you cause you dunno whether you have changce to love her tomorrow.. please show how much you love her when she still be with you.

Sigh. How sad when she wrote this. Yea. Are you really love me? ):

We went jj just now, you cried again. This time you were crying like a baby and try your best to hold me. You hug me tightly, you crying in my arms. I hug you back and I crying too.
This is the first time you made me heart-pain when I heard your crying sound )':

I told you I not love you as much as you think. I be able leave you whenever. I know you're hurt, what to do? You want me to promise you do not talk to boys, you want me to promise you do not leave you forever, you want me to promise you that I must love you. sigh.

It's ady too late you know?

No matter how much you did, no matter how sad you are, my heart was dead.

Whoever stand on his side, whoever think that boy hit a girl is doesnt matter, I say sorry here.

Yea, I also have done something wrong, I've hit him, I've beat him, I used to think that he hit me back, beat me back, it's okay. Fair to him. But actually not.

I dunno. I'm so confusing. The love I towards him is changed to like. I would not spend my money on him. SIGH*

He said if he lost me, he rather die. He'll wait me, until the day I back to him.
He said I've changed, he have to re-understand me.

我很想哭，很想很想大声的哭出来。我该怎么做？谁能告诉我？

我一着压抑着自己的眼泪，一直锁着自己的情绪，结果？我得不到任何东西。

我找不到答案。

我承认我以前有错，大家都有错。可是我被影响。家人不允许，我的爱已不深。

我不懂。我失去方向。

曾经以为你是我的永远，到底是不是？我不知道。

sigh.

2010-02-16T11:24:00.007+08:00

You said that I've changed, I admit, I changed my attitude to you.

You said that I'm smart, you don't ever think that I can be so cold-blooded.

You said you're sad, you're freaking sad, you said you can't alive without me, and you said if you stay with me, it's nothing.

Because you can feel it.

This happened before, I was so troubled, I was phoned you always to disturb you, I was usually text you and forced you to reply me even you're busy.

But now? I wont. I wont find you, I wont text you and I wont mis you damn much like last time.

Hhahahahaha ! I'm smart enough. I also wonder that how come I can changed easily.

And then you said I've changed. I tot you dislike people to disturb you? LOL.

Well. I wont care you as much as last time, I wont miss you as hell much as last year, I wont love you as much as before and just give me some time to recover my scars.

You said you want to change, you want treat me well well, k, come on, I'm waiting for you.

Time can prove everything.

I LOVE MY FAMILY <3

No matter what happened, home is the only place I can rely on. They'll help me to solve the problem. They'll protect me ): I LOVE MY FAMILY.

..

2010-02-15T03:01:00.003+08:00

I feel touched.

I told him -we are over. But he keep on pretend, pretend dunno, cant see, cant hear and what else.
I go to his grandpa's house today and gave him the presents that I bought and I made, and then he wants to hug me, but why I felt wanna vomit at the moment? I dunno.

All our memories here. And our conclusion.

I never think want to break up but I cant forget all the bad moment that you've gave me.

Why you want to do so and then now only regret? You know what? It's too late.

My heart is ady broken. Happened is happened. No matter how you changed now, it's ady too late.
I told my whole family that how you treat me and what is the reason that you hit me, I did told them what I did also, cause if I only tell them how bad you're, it's very unfair to you.

They just said : 这个男孩子不能要了的啦。我们都没有打过你，他打你？你懂我们有对心痛吗？我养你养那么大，送去给人打的吖？

I really lucky that they are my family. They will be with me when I need. They wont leave me and ignore me, Family is the best !

So how? You asked me to be with you, you said you will changed, what you want to change uh?

And ofcuz I know you love me, you really love me, just I cant let go that you hit me.
I really can throw you out from my world you know? Finally I can.
But then you sent me few pic and msg :

第一次吻你，永远不忘记。ILOVEYOU MWAHS < 3

虽然有时我真的很生气你，但是我希望你知道，开始到现在我真的没有想过要离开你或丢下你一个人。

我望着的地方就是我们的未来，我们许了的诺言。

我们以后就要抱着一个属于我们的小孩，因为将来你是我亲爱甜蜜的

老婆。

我在等你回复。

You made me cried ! My sis saw the msg too. She cried too. swt.

Why you want like this? I dunno what should I do.

Even I stay back with you, My heart is ady spoil. I wont love you as much as last time, I dunwan to get hurt again. I can leave you whenever. I wont scare that you dunwan me. And also I can leave you easily.

You try to hit me or scold me lar, I really will straight to tell you that I HATE YOU AND GOODBYE.

Finally you know what's the feeling when you lost me, I tot I cant live without you but actually not. Should say you cant live without me. Great.

Just now you came my house but you dare not to come in, you want me to turn back all the things to you. Cause I scold you and tell you loudly that WE ARE OVER. But then I give you back you still stand at the outside, you asked my cousin to asked me to go out, I dunwan. You never go, you still stand at my door there and waiting me. So many relative were in my house, and your daddy, mummy are waiting you. Your dad scolded you, asked you faster, but you dont care, you still want to wait me.

My sis said you're fucking love me. Yea. I know. I'm human, I can feel. I got feeling.

But then? I wont forgive you. It's ady have a big scars in my heart.

sigh*

Today is your birthday, happy birthday (:

040109-14-2-10

2010-02-13T23:03:00.000+08:00

Gotta stop blogging here.

Cause our relationship is already end.

I love you. And I'll forget you.

Take care (:

Happy birthday and happy valentine day <3

040109 - 140210

warning !

2010-02-11T19:03:00.003+08:00

陈文好！

我警告你！！！

和我讲话不准有半句粗言！！

不准大声！！！

因为你大声的时候很样衰！！！

严重声明。

5.50pm. 11.2.2010

2010-02-11T17:59:00.001+08:00

I texted him - Today got go JJ not?
He didnt reply.

1 hour ago, I called him. He was fall asleep.

Suddenly he asked - why you so lanc wor?
I said - You lanc first gea.
He said - I can lanc but you cant. You've no qualification to lanc. You try to lanc somemore lar, see what'll I do.

Niama Hai !

Why do he said those thing uh?
By the way I've no feeling, I dunno why.

Sweat =.="

new year coming (:

2010-02-09T22:15:00.001+08:00

Wohoo. I am fully happy and excited, cause CNY is coming.

I just want my happy life and always smile with happy (:

I LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS. I do share all the fun with you all.

我要你的爱 ♥

ehem.

2010-02-08T21:54:00.000+08:00

He is kinda a weird guy.
Once I treat him well, he'll treat me as well as my mummy treat me, once I treat him not good, he'll treat me bad till nothing I can describe, hit me even.

Since I can't let go, I'll just stay here, stay with him.

Since I can't fed up, I'll try to treat him good all the time.

I do love him, I love him much. I really love him. No one can replace him.

Yea, I'm a stupid girl, but no choice, who asked him to treat me good like heaven last time? )':

That's just a point I cant let go.

Listen ar KELVIN CHAN ! I LOVE YOU ! I LOVE YOU ! I LOVE YOU ! <3

Don't tell me that you cant feel my love ar ! :D

end !

2010-02-07T00:50:00.008+08:00

Remenber last two week and last week?

He said he off, no work, can accompany me, but then? Once his boss call him, he promised to work.

Well. He said he want earn more money, more money then can spend more on me. Since he said this, I forgive him. I dont ever sleep that day, cause I worked with him.

Kays, last week, he told me he off again, so I straight find him and without thinking, once I reach, he tell me he have to work at night, 11pm till 9am. Sigh*

I said "Money mer, cause of me mer, you go ba, I go with you." (Cause I dont wanna fight with him)

So I just followed him to work, never sleep again. How god I was !

This week, he was telling lies again and again !! He said he off today, he said he could accompany me for SURE ! See, what I doing right now ! Yea, truth, he off today, but he told me he still have go back for accompany his friend worr. ISH ! I asked why, he said cause his friend always accompany him. WTF !

Then why I find him? What I come for?

I dunno. I'm stupid enough. I swear to the god, I WONT FIND HIM ANYMORE, I WONT !

I AM FUCKING ANGRY RIGHT NOW !!

Today, I asked him "Babe, let's hang later."

He asked me "With?"

I answered "Just me and you."

He said "Wa, I rather stay at cc lor."

=.=" CC again.

We argued cause of this problem again, and finally he said "My work is more important than you now."

How hurt !

Why it's so hard to end a relationship?

Last two days, he said to me "Ish ! You're so annoy, I dont wanna to hear your sound ar, close the phone lar, go sleep lar you"

Shit ! I said "Yerr, like that said me geaa"

He said "yea lar, if not want how wor? Who asked you to make me angry? Know wrong or not? Say sorry lar, say you are sorhai, say you are cibai, then I forgive you."

WHATTHEHELL !

And last (This is what most hurt me) "If you want to hold me back, it's impossible, so you better dont regret. You will regret I tell you, I think you know what I mean." (Means he wants to break up)

Sigh* I POST ALL HIS BAD HERE. HOW HE TREAT ME. WHAT HE SAID TO ME AND HOW HE TREAT A GF.

I giving up.

If you can find a girl who lov you deep like me, just go ahead.

You are the one who'll regret.

Let's break up.

Let go and fed up.

I can do that.

I must do that.

I will tell you that I dont love you, I want to break up with you when your birthday. 14-2-2010

Just wait for it.

04012009-14022010.

Arggg.

2010-02-04T20:34:00.002+08:00

10 more days , 14-2 , It's a meaningful day.

For me,

Three special day on a same day - Cny, Valentine day and his birthday.

Gift is making me headache ):

What should I give him? Cloth? Wallet? Bell? I'd bought for him before.

Any idea? Is there anything special I can send him as presents?

Allar. Think till my head big like big head shrimp =.="

Confusing D:

520.

2010-02-03T20:20:00.000+08:00

520. KelvinChan <3

5 2 0

): No choice. Laws.

2010-02-01T22:56:00.001+08:00

We quarrel and quarrel everyday, I felt bored on it, even on you.

What should we do? How can maintain our relationship?
I think maybe would change a lot if we comply with the rules. I hope so. I'm trying to make some rules for you and me. Who dont follow by the rules, would be punish. Nyek nyek.

You should do these -

1- Can't talk loudly to me .

2- Can't know / flirt with girl .

3- Loyal to me .

4- No violence .

5- Hold my hand always .

6- Hug me .

7- Care me .

8- Tell me everythings bout you .

9- No secret .

10- Love me as much as possible .

11- Can't scold me when you're in a bad temper .

12- Can't scold me loudly ): Man man tell me what I'd wrong if I did wrong.

13- Share everything to me .

14- No bad word .

I should do these - [sobs, :( ]

1- No rude.

2- Behave like a girl.

3- Cant over loud when talking.

4- Love vin sahaja.

and most of rules are same with above. [ 4,7,8,9,10,11,12,13 ]

And last rules ( most important ) - Cannot be mention about like separate, breakup those kind of word.

The result of fighting with him -

His hand.

Mine.

Dont wanna fight anymore. Pain - HURT !

forget all the unhappy moments.

2010-02-01T01:28:00.002+08:00

Well, as you said, let's forget all the unhappy things, unhappy moments, more considerate to each other.

I was really touched that you told me these -

I wont leave you, I never want to leave you. Trust me k? I will fetch you home tomorrow after school. I love you.

I trust you, I dunno why, I just want to.

I cant forget your good and also cant forgive your bad, what should I do?

Hard to meet a guy who treat you good but easy to meet a guy who're bad.
I choose to stay with you. It's still have a very strong feeling between us, a very deep love.
I cant fed up. I cant let go.

Do not move the love <3

Yea ! This is what I want, your warm huggie ((:

Ilovethisboy. Ilovehim.

): sad case.

2010-01-31T05:35:00.000+08:00

Can you tell me what is the feeling you towards me? What you treat me as?
As usual, you'll hold my hand when we are walking, you'll hug me when you want to.
How many day you didnt hold my hand? How many day you didnt hug me deeply like before?

Well, I willing spend my time for accompany you, let's see what time now - 5:26 am, I dont ever sleep today cause of you. I just sit beside you, but then you look the pc more than me.
Sigh.

What you want actually? Why dont you tell me? You said you still love me, you said you never changed, and you told me you've gave me lot of chance. What chance you gave uh?

You said you off today and tomorrow, can accompany me. So? See what're you doing right now.
I'm damn disappointed actually.

When I want to discuss the problem with you, you'll just tell me that you work cause of me, asked me why cant I understand you, asked me go ahead and find a job. Since you said this, I have nothing to refute.
Break up cause of this. I really cant stand on you know?
I dunno what is in your mind, did you care me? I dunno. Did you love me? I dunno.
When i asked you, you'll just said yes yes of cause.

We cant meet much like before, why dont you spend more time on me when we are together?
Why I still have to accompany you when you're working?

Yea, honest, you treat me good, good until I no way to describe.
And also, you treat me bad, bad until I no eyes to see ):
You slapped me, you kicked me, you scolded me.
Can a boy treat a gal like that? Even I'm strong enought and you're weak. LOL !
Luckily you know to protect me even you are slapping me or kicking me. Cause you're always to be gently.

Who knows I'was hurt in my heart? Who knows how pain I was?

- Boy can't slap a girl no matter why. ( My sis told me ) :(

Let me feel your love if you love me.

Erkk LOL !

2010-01-28T23:36:00.000+08:00

A silly guy, he wrote my name on his hand. He said he was so bored at school so only wrote that =.=" BORED ONLY WROTE !

Honestly, I felt happy when I received these pic. Feeling happy to know you (:
Thankyou. ♥

ANGEL YING.

I didnt see wrong hor? :DD

Goodbyemylove ♥

hee .

wee .

Babe, I never want to let you alone.

突然有好多话想说。

http://www.facebook.com/pages/KBOX-ST-F1-ANGEL/107465299283307

(:

Support me support me support support me pleaseee .

Thankew much muchie <3

Join my fan pagee.

Exky.

For you. ANSON KONG.

Restart.

Kelvin dont fan angel anymore. beacuse kelvin love you. cannot angel everyday unhappy. just want angel everydayhappy and smile. i still waiting for you. pls let me say one more again. i love you forever♥ .

.

Let's smile !

Denggg,

sigh.

..

040109-14-2-10

warning !

5.50pm. 11.2.2010

new year coming (:

ehem.

end !

Arggg.

520.

): No choice. Laws.

forget all the unhappy moments.

): sad case.

Erkk LOL !

Kelvin dont fan angel anymore. beacuse kelvin love you. cannot angel everyday unhappy. just want angel everyday
happy and smile. i still waiting for you. pls let me say one more again. i love you forever♥ .