Tuesday, August 31, 2010
You want freedom , I give you :)
I give you everything that you want .
HAHAHHAHA !
And lets exchange , give me more your LOVE and CARE ,
Im your girlfriend leaa please .
Wee <3
Happy birthday Malaysia .
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Sunday, August 29, 2010
老公生日了。那些紧张,烦恼,问题也通通带走。
老公问我,为什么当他要对我好的时候,我变得不怎么好
其实不是这样的,我做工没打给你,是因为我在弄着你的生日卡片。
本打算买的,因为自己笨,不管什么都做得不好,更何况是第一次
可是再想想,自己做好像比较有心思,所以就自己做啦
做工时候没有找你,因为当时的我在那卡片上涂涂改改·
不要以为我变了
你说我们公开了,可是。。在你朋友面前,你还是没有承认
我也算了,不追究了,不想了,你开心就好
反正时间成熟时,你自然会做
我想说,
如果,你真的很爱我,
如果,你真的觉得我变了,变乖了,
那为什么你还要在意别人怎样看我?
配不到你过十二点,有点不开心
今天我还自己走路到对面的secret receipt 买蛋糕
怕蛋糕融了,所以留在那边到6点多再回去拿,在向对面店借放冰厨。
星期一那天我休息,想到没有时间买礼物了,所以就去jj选购,
走来走起,间间去看,选了老半天,别人都看我不耐烦了,
最终,还是回到levi's买了个钱包,因为我看他旧的钱包不顺眼,真不知道他用了多久
嘻嘻
生日快乐,轩轩老公 <3
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Thursday, August 26, 2010
Its very funny , Yea , I got what I want but it seems not that enough as I thought .
I dont understand my mind , what do I want actually ?
Once alone , once listening to those sad song , Im just feel like EMO . Duhhhhhhhh
Dislike*
And .. I miss you right now .. I feel lonely when missing you .
For you , what am I ?
A gf that you wouldn't tell others ?
A secret relationship ?
Sigh* Whatever
What also dun wanna think dy , sleep early tonight :)
Good night everyonee . heee
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Sunday, August 22, 2010
其实 一个人也可以很好 只是放不下你
其实 放开你并不是个不好的解脱 只是我很爱你 想自私的霸占你
其实 我可以很开心 就算没有任何人 只是我还在执着着你曾经的好
其实 很多很多时候 我都在烦 不要问我在想什么 烦什么
或是当我有东西和别人讨论 商量 而我不告诉你内容
那全都只是因为 我在烦的 想的 讨论的 商量的 都是你
离开了你 你会比较开心 是吧?
像现在这样的我 虽然你还在我身边 可是我开心吗
忽冷忽热的你 我该如何面对
就连我不开心 你都认为我在伪装 我真的还可以怎样
当然 我不可能忽然消失
可是 以后的某一天 当我真的承受不住了 在很没有预兆之下 我会自动离开
不管怎样 我不后悔
至少我们曾经很相爱过
一切都不再像以前那么简单
每次一个人 每一个晚上 都会忍不住掉泪
我真的爱了 太爱了
这样的生活还得维持多久
我不晓得
想每天的忙忙碌碌的过
这样就没那么多空闲的时间让我想太多
可能你的忽冷忽热 可以让我渐渐遗忘
遗忘以前的你
我不会在表面的对你好 因为你不会有感觉
我不会大胆的要求这要求那 因为我没有资格
我不会嚣张的在大庭广众上牵着你 抱着你 因为我知道你不喜欢
好的 通通都听你的
只要你不喜欢 我就不做
希望自己可以很快好起来
很快的离开这个是非地
不想因为别人而活
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Thursday, August 19, 2010
If you don't want to open our relationship , its just up to you .
I've no comment or any idea to opening it .
But I want you to know that I love you :)
Never change .
My heart is only belongs to you . Ngek ngek :D
Gonna tattoo this sat lur , will it be pain ?
Hope it'll be nice <3
God bless ;D
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Monday, August 16, 2010
Who knows what I look like when I cry ?
Who knows my heart is empty cause your cruel words ?
Who knows my life is nothing but you ?
I always pretend nothing when I sad .
I always smile even I'm upset .
Who knows my feeling truely ?
That's nobody ..
Its so hard to let you forgive me .
Its also hard to let you go .
I'm lonely when I miss you .
I wanna go back to your heart .
What I done , its just not enough , I know .
But you know , I treat you with my full heart .
And do you know ?
I love the feel when you hugging me ,
I love the feel when I wake up and the first person I saw is you ,
Its sweet .
<3
Whatever will be , will be .
Heart you .
And do you know ?
I love the feel when you hugging me ,
I love the feel when I wake up and the first person I saw is you ,
Its sweet .
<3
Whatever will be , will be .
Heart you .
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对你的好,没有限期。
很多很多时候,已经觉得累了
很多很多时候,出现了很多很多的问题
我想不通,不明白为什么
没有一个适合的对象让我问,更没一个适合的地方让我发泄
今天Ashley她说,她有时候很羡慕我,因为我可以什么都嘻嘻哈哈笑了就过
可是她做不到。
不是她做不到,而是我不喜欢把烦恼都留给自己,
我喜欢问大家的意见,虽然大家的意见不同,会导致我更加混扰,
但至少,在询问大家意见的时候,在那一短暂的时刻,我可以放开自己的烦恼,
让大家为我分担,再一起讨论。
至少,我可以利用那一段短短的时间来不让烦恼紧绷着自己的脑袋
至少,我可以利用那一段短短的时间来不让烦恼紧绷着自己的脑袋
其实我累了。心理上的累。
生理上的累,可以休息。
但我不是。
不管我休息多少天,多少夜,也解决不了。
这样的日子,到底还要维持多久
他说得很对,不管怎样,问题已经存在着,
每每想到,就会沉默,再变冷淡。。
谁能想象这样的感情能跑几年?
如果现在放手,重新调整自己的生活,
大家过回大家的生活,
在以后的某一天,
你我相见,大家都长大了,成熟了,
再在回一起,这样是不是比较好?
至少我们在回一起,那些问题已经都不在了。
不是因为那个问题而分开,也不是因为为了解决那个问题又在回一起。
是我的,最后还是我的。
重点是,我不甘愿。
我现在爱你。我就要一直待在这里,等待着你看到我的好和改变。
不管多久,我都会这样。我要你陪着我,看着我如何改变,如何变乖。
有时候,倔强也是一种幸福.
因为我的倔强,
因为我的固执,
我选择不放手,不放弃,
这就是对你的我。它让我有了小小的幸福。
Blogged @ Monday, August 16, 2010 |
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Friday, August 13, 2010
我以为,我一直都可以很好。
只要有你在,不管我做错什么,我都可以为所欲为。
因为你都会一次又一次的原谅我
我曾经不顾你的感受。我曾经背叛过你。我曾经骗过你。
骗了再骗。骗了再骗。。
我曾经把你当替代品。我曾经伤害过你。我曾经很坏过。
我不知道我让你失望了多少次,
更不知道我让你绝望了几多次,
可是你一次又一次的原谅我。
我总以为,你不会不要我的。
我总认为,我在你的心里一定有着一定的位置。
直到我们反反复复的在回一起,
直到大家的恋爱方式都变了,
直到大家对大家更加肯定,
再直到我做得最错的那一次,
你选择离开,选择不要我了。
在那个时候,才知道原来你真的有容忍度的,
因为太爱我了,所以伤得也更深了。
因为太爱我了,所以更加的失望,绝望了。
不知道已经多少次了。算也算不清了,
你终于狠心的抛下我。
心是痛的,但这是我应得的,难道不是吗?
唯有你,可以一次又一次的容忍我。
容忍我的坏。
太伤了。。
虽然我以前一次又一次的做了很多很伤害你,很对不起你的事
可是你真的可以一次又一次的原谅,包容我。
那已是以前,已是过去。
现在,我真的改了,我等着你去发现。
不急,真的不急,只要有一天,你真的看到,那就好了。
老公,我真的只要你了。只要你了。
可以的话,我希望是一辈子。
晚安。轩轩老公。。
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Thursday, August 12, 2010
One week ago , his tongue ring lost already .
But then I asked him ' why dont you buy a new one ?'
He said ' no money '
Alright . And yesterday I bought a new one for him .
He doesnt know and I never tell .
I was so upset yesterday cause he's still very cool towards me ,
but then I received a msg of him ,
he sent “today movie cheap , I got car , we go see ba "
Who can imagine that how happy was I at the moment , ming yan looked at me , I was so high and excited . HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAAHHH
Kept on smile , smile when serving customer , smile suddenly when nothing happened . LOL
All of them thought that I'm silly already I think.
He came and fetch me buy ticket and then went to his house ,
And then I said 'i'd bought you a new tongue ring '
He said 'i dont believe , where is it ?'
I said ' here lor '
He asked again 'where ? where ?'
I said 'here lor here lor '
HAHAHHA . I shy to take it out and He was shy too . But I not really know why he was shying there .
I took out , and gave him .. 'neh , here lor '
He smile , I know he's happy when he saw it . He doesn't want to show how happy he was. But I can really felt , he's happy at the moment .
Then he asked ' why will you buy this ? You thought ill xin dong (心动)mea ? '
I silent . But I was so freaking sweet ^^
And then , I want to tell you that I LOVE YOU , but .. I dunno why its so hard .
I cried . You hugged me deeply , I warm but my heart pain :(
Unhappy things - Skip !
And I wake up at 9 this morning , going out for breakfast with family and I went to a mini market and buy material .
Its my very first time . nyek nyek .
Sandwiches seems easy to make but its not easy for me .
First time make , I failed ):
So that I gave my family and asked them to enjoy :) LOL .
They very 38 , keep laugh me =.= Maybe they laugh that Im stupid , cause i never get into kitchen and make something that can eat by myself gua ? dont know :/
Second round , success gua i think . HAHAHA .
So i packed it up and asked mummy fetch me to go to that salon which tom's work at .
I reached and I called him .
He came out and saw me , I felt shy again suddenly ><
I gave it to him , and again , his shy and happy face appeared :) Just like last night . hoho . Really really cute . I love it ! It was second time I saw that cute expression on his face <3
I'm happy . Can you feel that I'm changed ? Can you feel that I'm already changed ?
Blek , I love you <3
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Tuesday, August 10, 2010
其实我累了。
你的话,好伤。
你错了。
因为我不会放弃。
你错了。
因为我不再是那样的人。
你错了。
因为我改了,你还不知道。
你错了。
你说我可以放下你。
你错了。
你说我会放下你。
你通通都错了。
你唯一对的是,
你原谅了我。
下辈子,你不用担心了。
我对自己有信心。
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其实你知道吗?
今天你说,
认识我,是你人生最后悔,最遗憾的事。
你顿时起了鸡皮疙瘩,泪再留下,我只能接受你现在所说的东西,除了这样,我还能做什么?还能说什么?
是的,我错了。太错了。
至少我改了。对得起良心。
我要快乐。不该是烦恼,不该是懊恼。
因为我改了。
麻木的想办法,想做更多的东西来打动你,
今天再想想,不需要吧。至少我真的改了。
可是我也不会忘记答应过你要做你好好的女朋友。
至于我答应要做的乖乖女朋友,我已经做到啦^^
要开心的度过每一天,虽然现在我们不再像以前一样了,
可是没关系。
有一天,我们会甜蜜如初 :) 我知道。我相信。
我爱你。轩。
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I love you .
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Oh god . Finally finally i get him back .
I'll be the guai guai lui :) never bad again .
Learning to be a perfect gf . <3
And one more thing i wanna to say ,
I'll never forgive that guy . The one who always making story and rumors around here and there .
Pls lar , dont tell something that never happen to your friend .
You tell lies to my mummy , my sis and my tom .
Trying to rogue somebody else .
And you never tell others that how bad you are , right ?
You told others that tom beat me ? But did you told them that you slapped me that night again ?
You asked tom to leave , you said you'll leave too , but did you ? you were followed me until my mum came .
You're fake .
You promised tom that never want me back , but after that what you did ?
Once tom leave , you holding the chance to ask me why I just cant let him go but let the 1 and half year's relationship gone ? Then you cried and said a lot of things , bull shit !
What you cried for ? I just dont understand .
You told tom that I asked you to give me chance ?
You told tom that I asked you break up with wawal ?
WHEN?
Dont SIN KA LAN again I TELL YOU !
Why I rather stay tom hardly also dun wanna be back wid you ?
That's cause you're too annoying . TOO DOG !
And you never tell others that how bad you are , right ?
You told others that tom beat me ? But did you told them that you slapped me that night again ?
You asked tom to leave , you said you'll leave too , but did you ? you were followed me until my mum came .
You're fake .
You promised tom that never want me back , but after that what you did ?
Once tom leave , you holding the chance to ask me why I just cant let him go but let the 1 and half year's relationship gone ? Then you cried and said a lot of things , bull shit !
What you cried for ? I just dont understand .
You told tom that I asked you to give me chance ?
You told tom that I asked you break up with wawal ?
WHEN?
Dont SIN KA LAN again I TELL YOU !
Why I rather stay tom hardly also dun wanna be back wid you ?
That's cause you're too annoying . TOO DOG !
Wanna fight with my boy that night right ? Damn lame .
Just now called my boy and acting that you're vaness's cousin ?
Who also can recognize your shit sound lar =.=
This is not the first time , remember last time ?
When tom called you , you dare not to answer the call ,
Once answer , just acting that you're kelvin's brother ? Yiii .
When you got a brother ? HHAHAHA !
Love me ? If you love me just let me go ,
If you love me then pls respect me and yourself .
Dont , dont care my thing , it's not of your business anymore .
What I do , Where I go , you needn't to ask vaness or tom .
Is just my problem . Not yours .
Dont disturb my life . Dont disturb my family too .
Dont disturb my life . Dont disturb my family too .
Treat your gal better lar . Throw her alone at dong kui that night .
I was keep asking you to go back , but you dont care . Are you still a boy ?
How can you dont answer your gal's call when you know that she's alone there and waiting for you ?
And I really dont und lar
And I really dont und lar
You slapped me again ? Why huh ? Cause I love tom but not you ?
Cause I can hold him back like crazy but I never treat you so ?
Cause I can hold him back like crazy but I never treat you so ?
How can I trust you ? How can I believe that you'll never slap me again?
hahhaha ! It's very impossible ..
Do you have the qualification for slapping me ?
Just cause I wanna find my tom , then you slapped me ?
Dont think im blur and drunk that day , I never !
Fuck off from my life .
You're the only one who I hate most and not for awhile .
IS FOREVER !
Never and never want to see your shit face anymore .
Once others mention bout you , I just feel like vomit .
Fake guy , Dog guy , JUST FUCK OFF ! KELVIN CHAN MUN HOU !
YOU ARE JUST LIKE A SHIT !
I HATE YOU !
YOU ARE JUST LIKE A SHIT !
I HATE YOU !
Dont kacau my life anymore .
Xuan ,
I know it's very hard to make you believe me , but .. at least you've gave me the last chance .
I know it's very hard to make you believe me , but .. at least you've gave me the last chance .
Thanks . I'm happy :) I love you .
Dont care others , Dont care what they all say ,
live for myself , live for my life .
You and me , my life .
Blogged @ Tuesday, August 10, 2010 |
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Saturday, August 7, 2010
不知道该怎么做。
即使很伤心,很心疼,也没人会懂。
我终于了解,终于体会到你之前的痛了。
对不起,真的很对不起。
我只能说,我欠你太多了。
我很牛,我不会放弃。
不会放弃的烦你,求你,找你,想你和爱你。
可能回不到过去,但我也要试试,至少我曾经试过。
你很绝,这是第一次,你对我这样。
我吓到了,你懂吗?
很多时候,很想哭,但我知道你要面子,所以忍了,忍得很幸苦。
当一个人时,脑袋又出现一大堆全部关于你的东西。
我说过,除了你,我谁都不理,
所以现在,你知道吗?我只有你,而且我不需要其他人。
这次,我错了,错的无药可就。
所以,我知道错了,也正在想办法挽救,就算我知道成功率很低。
到底要怎么做,你才可以原谅我
我好烦好烦,我好想好想你。。
每一秒都在想办法要回你的心。
你说你死心了。你说我不再重要。你说我不可以要,不值得要。
你说就算要你死,你也不会要回我。你说你已经把我丢出你的心里了。
可是你也说了,你不会不要我。你也说了,你只要我乖,那什么都可以。
原来你后来所说的那些,只不过是要止住我的眼泪罢了。
人不能自私,不能霸道,但是对不起
我就是这么自私的想拥有你。这么霸道的不讲道理,每天的烦着你。
你的每一个小动作,都变了。
昨晚,你没有那牙刷给我,
昨晚,你不让我用你的杯,
昨晚,你没有要我和你一起的上楼睡觉。
昨晚,你说你要我,只要我乖,我听话。我答应,而你也答应了。
今早,你没叫我起身冲凉,
今早,你没叫我刷牙,
今早,你没拿水给我喝。
今早,你又说我不可以要,你不要我了。
全部都给你说完,为什么,为什么你可以这么绝?为什么?
我会继续这样做很多事,就算你多我多坏都好,我不理。
因为你值得。
我爱你。真的很爱你。
Blogged @ Saturday, August 07, 2010 |
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Wednesday, August 4, 2010
I'm sorry to him . To my lovely boyfriend .
It's cause I did something wrong but I never tell him .
But then , someone called my tom last night and told him that what I did .
I thought he would be very angry but he never ..
He's just don't wanna argue with me , cause he know what kind of girlfriend I am .
After argue , I'll just like no mood , down and angry . At last also need him to coax me . lol
I'm lucky , cause I met him .
I'm lucky , cause he loves me .
Love a person , not because of their appearance , it's cause their HEART .
Don't try to judge others boyfriend or girlfriend's appearance .
Why are they coupling ? There have a reason that we never know .
So don't judge anything by looking it's surface .
So don't judge anything by looking it's surface .
Don't start a relationship if you know it will end one day .
Pretty or handsome is nothing if him/her heart is empty :)
Trying to be happy and smile everything or facing some problem ,
Trying to don't think bout negative way , my life is cheerful :) Aww
Blogged @ Wednesday, August 04, 2010 |
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Monday, August 2, 2010
最近很多烦恼。
我开始不喜欢自己的家,不知道为什么。
可能他们都不了解我。他们想的东西和我都不一样。
他们的想法即简单又夸张。都喜欢看外表做决定。
管他们的,反正我就来走了,就不用每时每刻看到他们。
不然真的烦死。
计较到不行,刚才拿了妈咪10块钱,给她发现了,逼我还她,
幸好我早知她会那样,所以也没把钱放进钱包,当她问我拿回时,我直接就指向桌面,
那一刻,我完全没有感觉了。
钱真的很重要。没有钱就没有快乐。没有钱什么都没有。
我要学会快乐。我要学会长大。
不要一味的回味过去,努力的为自己的未来打算。
回到家,感觉很好。
可是当她们一直唠唠叨叨的说你这个不好那个不好的时候,
我就不喜欢了。
我知道,她们是关心我,要我好。
可是也不必的一直向我要钱吧?
我要钱但我更讨厌钱。
怎么可以那么现实?
我做了2天的promoter , 一天120 ,才做了两天,第三天,
妈咪就问我要钱。
我的天啊。
我自己现在吃也不够啊。
怎么给你 ?
就像你刚才,才那10块,你都可以这样。
我无话可说。
在我还没成为化妆师之前,我是不会给你钱的。
就这么多。
另外,我也不会向你要钱。你不用担心。
Blogged @ Monday, August 02, 2010 |
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